She's Only Seventeen: A Novel of Sex, Drugs and Rock & Roll by K. M. Ellis Read Free Book Online

continuing.
    “Would you stop that?” he said angrily.
    “Do you know what else happens when I’m eighteen, Gare?”
    “What?”
    “You’re no longer my legal guardian, YOU don’t get to tell me what to do anymore, but you know what? I don’t even have to wait for that cause I’ve been liberated from you.”
    “What do you mean, Kathryn?”
    “It means I’m a legal adult with a working profession in the eyes of the law and” I giggled cruelly,” I make my own choices now”
    “When did this happen.”
    I hadn’t gotten the official papers back yet but it was in motion. “Last week,” I said,” I hired a private lawyer.”
    “Kathryn…”
    “I’m leaving, and you need to leave me alone, or else I’ll get you for harassment.”
    “Don’t be like this, Kat” he said flatly, “your acting like your father.”
    My eyes snapped at him, “I hate you.”
    He grabbed my arms, his eyes blazing, “you don’t hate me, you little tease, you’re just angry because you didn’t get your way. Or at least you don’t think you did, but you fucking did. I want you, I still want you, words can’t stop it… nothing can.” He kissed me, hard and sloppy.
    I broke away from him, “It’s too late, it’s all too late.”
    “Can’t we just wait until you’re eighteen?”
    “You have been my legal guardian most of my life, don’t you think it looks a little funny?”
    “Not if you really love me,” he confessed.
    “And you love me?” I asked
    “In my own way, it’s complicated…”
    It was all I needed to hear.
    “Do what you want,” I said, no longer caring.
    Thomas
    June 1984
    When she finally admitted to me that she had been sleeping with Gary, I don’t know what hit me first, hatred or disgust. Although I had seen the affair in action, hearing it come from her lips affected me differently than I thought it would. I couldn’t tell her that I had already found out, that I had seen them together in their unnatural embrace.
    “Why would you sleep with him, Kat? That’s so fucking gross.”
    She shrugged, “It’s over now so who cares?”
    “Uh, everyone does!” I pointed out
    I didn’t want to admit to her that I was jealous. Jealous that he had been able to have her, jealous that she wanted him, jealous that she was hurt over losing him…
    She had used me.
    It would be the last time she would.
    James
    July 1984
    “He will get over it, Kat,” I told her
    “No, he’s pretty angry this time.”
    I sighed, “Look, Kat, Tom is… he has always been… a bit rash. I mean you have to see it from his point of view.”
    She shrugged, “okay, so maybe sleeping with Gary was a bad idea. But James, I felt something with him, something I have never felt before with anyone else.”
    “Like love?” I asked
    She giggled, “Love is a stupid word.”
    “That’s because you’ve never been in love, Kat.”
    She sat down on my bed, “I thought I loved Drew, but I realize now he’s just a fucking loser.”
    “Drew’s not a loser Kat. He was almost ten years older than you; he took advantage of you, sorta like Gary. Kat, find a guy your own age?”
    She laughed, “Like you?”
    I smiled, “You know I don’t want to be in a relationship.”
    She inched closer to me, “what if it was just a sexual relationship,” she asked under her breath.
    “I think that could work,” I responded, smiling at her and coming closer so she was inches away.
    “Don’t tell Thomas,” she said sternly
    “I wouldn’t dream of it,” I responded, grabbing the back of her head and pulling her down to me.
    What he didn’t know wouldn’t hurt him right?
     
    Roy
    Late August 1984
    It had been months since Shane had approached me with the idea of touring with Neptune again. I had toyed with the idea in my mind, back and forth, until I decided it would be worth a shot. After all, the numbers hadn’t been what they had been since they were together last time.
    I called a meeting with Arctic Circle .
    “So I have