move.
"I don't know I just thought you would think it was weird."
She laughed again.
"It would only be weird if it was my dad, but we both know it's not him so moving on."
I blinked and swallowed hard. She had no idea.
"Right," I answered.
I had no other reply and adding to the lie I was telling didn't seem feasible. We hadn't had any close calls so far and I wanted to keep it that way. When you start adding extra components to your lie that's how you get caught. I kept our conversations about her dad at a normal level. I would listen to her when she talked about her parent's relationship and that was it. I kept my prying at a concerned friend level.
I never asked anything too out of the ordinary.
"Besides my parents are trying to make their relationship better so my dad is behaving."
I felt my face scrunch up and immediately fixed it. I couldn't have heard her say that correctly. Laurence and I had a plan. We were going to be together and he was going to leave her. He had been complaining about their relationship the entire time we've been together. He was waiting for the right time to tell the kids they were separating. We had already been through this before. He would tell me one thing and then turn around and go back to her. I wasn't dealing with that again.
My heart couldn't take it.
I needed to know more without appearing suspicious. I wasn't letting him get away again. We were meant to be together. I loved that man and if I had to fight for that love so be it. She was not going to win again. She didn't love him as much as I loved him. We were soul mates. I knew it. He said it and that was all I needed to believe.
"What do you mean behaving?"
"Well my parents don't know that I know about my dad's affair."
I wasn't his first mistress?
He had done this before?
How could he not tell me this?
I was completely thrown off. I never believed he was perfect, but not this. Not a history of multiple affairs. I needed to know more.
"Your dad cheated on your mom?"
"Yes on her and Constance from what of my mom has told me. My mom and dad were in love and supposed to be getting married when my mom found out he was cheating on her. Apparently, my dad was quite the ladies’ man when they were younger."
Humph, I thought.
"Wow, I didn't know that. You never told me that."
"Well I only found out a couple years ago. My mom told me when I told her I overheard my dad and Constance arguing about if he was having another affair. She told me she wouldn't be surprised considering it wouldn’t be his first time."
I was trying to hide the five million emotions that were racing through my body. I was angry, hurt, pissed, and curious and so many other emotions I couldn't think of at the time. He had never told me he cheated on Constance before or Ambrosia's mom! I wanted to storm to his room at this very moment. I knew I needed to keep a cool head or everyone at the retreat would know what was going on.
"Oh so he cheated on your mom with Constance?"
"Nah they had been separated a while before he met her. I was like four when my mom left him and I believe I was seven when he met Constance."
"So how old were you when he cheated on Constance?"
"I don't know because I just found out about that. I do remember it probably being before LJ was born because I remember not going over there for a while. My dad would come get me from my mom's house, we would hang and then I would go back home. I was about 11 or 12 when he was born. At the time I didn't know what was going on. I thought he and my mom were mad at each other again. Now that I think about it that was probably it."
I was completely speechless.
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