lobby.
No sense in dwelling over something that was now out of his
hands.
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Bruised knuckles hurt like the devil, especially when the skin
was cut open. After two days the swelling should have gone down
a little, if only he’d taken a moment to put some ice on them right
after he’d hit the stars out of that piece of shit known as his
brother in law. But he hadn’t had the head for it as, at the time, a
few possibly broken fingers were the least of his concerns.
Sam emptied his bathroom sink and, after moving his fingers
carefully, lifted his hand for a closer inspection. Significant
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swelling, a few open cuts, and early scabbing. He’d live.
He gulped down some ibuprofen and walked into his bedroom,
shaking his head when the events that went down on Wednesday
crossed his mind. He hadn’t been so close to domestic violence
since his days in uniform and, albeit disturbing, none of the calls
he ever responded to had touched him in a personal way. This
was completely different.
He lay down on his bed and absently rubbed his fingers up
and down his stomach. A knot of apprehension had formed
there the moment he arrived at his sister’s house, and it hadn’t left
him since, even though he had effectively removed both her and
his nephew from harm’s way. Now that he’d sent that jerk off
to jail and brought Sandy and Nicky home with him, he needed
to figure out what the heck he was going to do. He had to find
a way to make it up to Nicky for not realizing earlier the hell he
had been living in.
God, he’d been so blind. His nephew, a normally chipper and
outgoing kid had been introverted and bashful the last time Sam
had been over to visit him a few weeks ago. He should’ve known
there was a reason, other than Nick getting older, that he hadn’t
hugged Sam the way he always did, a reason why Nick seemed to
be walking on egg shells and behaved like a miniature grown up
even though he was only twelve. The signs had been there and
Sam had managed to miss them all. Granted Sandy living upstate
didn’t make it exactly easy for Sam to be around them enough to
observe much of anything, but he’d tried his best.
Despite his crazy busy schedule at work, he stopped by to
see his mother and called his sister and nephew at least twice a
week, refusing to allow his emotional impairment to extend to
his immediate family. He might have no problem staying away
from relationships, and the responsibility and emotional turmoil
that were invariably attached to them, but he still cared for a few
individuals. Sam had been certain that they knew he would always
make himself available if they needed him, but apparently he
hadn’t been that clear.
That would certainly explain why his sister failed to mention
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her husband was physically abusing her. It would also explain
why she seemed to be more withdrawn every time he talked to
her; why she kept quiet even when the abuse extended to her
own son. It’d only taken a fifteen second phone call from his
terrified nephew to get Sam to drop everything and run to the
airport to catch the next flight to Buffalo.
That he’d failed to make her understand she could count
on him no matter what. Yeah… that had to be it, because the
alternative would be Sandy knowing she could call and deciding
against it. That was something he couldn’t even contemplate
when his own guilt was so overwhelming it felt like a ton of
bricks lying heavily on his chest.
Taking a deep breath, he pushed himself out of bed and
threw on some sweats and a t-shirt. He was so emotionally and
psychologically drained that his body felt like he’d gone ten
rounds with a heavy weight champion. He needed to get some
sleep, clear his mind enough to figure out what he was going to
do now that his house had transformed from a bachelor pad into
a shelter overnight. But first he needed to go check on his guests.
He
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