house was overflowing with people. Kate was so busy taking coats and organizing boots that she didnât notice the next pair of boots handed toward her was Tonyâs until she looked up and met his eyes. She paused for a moment, and he gave a faint grin. He was wearing jeans and a t-shirt under an open flannel shirt.
She straightened up as Ethan came through the door, threw his snow-covered coat on a pile, gave her a brief kiss on the cheek, handed over his boots, and sped on past, all at the speed of light. Barney gave a joyous bark, and they collided in a petting, wagging frenzy.
âSo youâre the welcome committee?â Tony asked.
Flakes of snow were melting in his dark hair. He put his hands in his pockets and rocked on the balls of his feet, eyeing her a little too closely. She felt flustered, knowing there was flour on her sweater because sheâd refused to wear an apron, and thereâd been so much to do that sheâd only put on half her makeup.
âEveryone has a job,â she quipped, setting both pairs of boots on a throw rug nearly overflowing with footwear.
Why was she feeling nervous around Tony? Was it still because sheâd gone to him first, out of instinct, and didnât know how she felt about itâor how he felt about it, except awkward?
She offered a bright smile. âWhereâs the rest of your family?â
âDadâs picking up a couple of the widows, who had midday dinner at the Silver Creek Ranch but still wanted to join your parents. As for Lyndsay . . .â
To her surprise, he avoided her gaze, looking past her to the holiday mayhem of kids running around, arguments over the Xbox, and someone calling that they needed more forks for the tables.
âLyndsay?â she prodded.
âSheâs feeling under the weather, or so she told me.â
âOh.â
âMe, I think she wanted to see her new guy but didnât want to share him just yet.â
âOf course, that makes sense.â But Kate felt like Lyndsay had very different reasons for staying away, and they all centered on her. She lowered her voice. âTony, I didnât plan on being here. She knows that, right? I feel terrible if she felt like she had to avoid me.â
âKateââ
âJust call her and say we have over thirty people.â
âKateââ
âWe can stay on opposite sides of the house, andââ
He caught her elbow, and she stopped her rambling to stare up at him in surprise. She didnât remember the last time heâd deliberately touched her. His fingers were surprisingly warm, though heâd just come from outside.
âShe makes her own decisions,â he said. âI think sheâs an idiot. Just because you two arenât close anymore. I mean, damn, doesnât she realize sheâs making me feel bad, like I was the cause of the wreck of your friendship, a friendship which started long before me?â
âYou?â she cried in disbelief, then lowered her voice when she saw her mom staring with interest from the kitchen doorway. âTony, you canât possibly believe she feels that way. Itâs me sheâs angry at, and very defensive on your behalf. Youâre her brother.â
He shrugged. âIt doesnât feel that way to me.â
She groaned. âTrust me. I know Lyndsâokay, I used to know her as well as you did, maybe better. She doesnât blame you for anything.â
âWell, she should. The marriage wasnât one-sided, after all, so neither was the divorce.â
Now it was her turn to shrug. âTell her from me that I wished sheâd have come. It would have been good to see her.â
He gave her a doubtful look, then started to move past her. It was her turn to catch his arm, then quickly let go.
âYou think I wouldnât want to see her?â she asked.
âItâs been a long time. Not sure why youâd want to revisit