business will be finished by then?â
âSure thing. Christmas is a time for being where the heart is.â The tawny eyes crinkled at the corners as he smiled.
Nice sentimentâif you knew where your heart was. Oh, stop the cynicism! she thought irritably. âIt sounds like youâre close to your parents. Any siblings?â
âNope, just me. They wanted more but it didnât happen and they chose not to go down the medical route. I spent lots of time at Jennieâs house during my childhood, though, so I didnât miss out or get spoilt. Whatabout you? Having two sisters must have been fun. Do you see much of them now youâre in London?â
âNot a lot,â she said carefully. âMy sisters are near in age so theyâve always tended to be a closed unit, more like twins really. Theyâre married now and live a few doors from each other.â
He nodded. âWhat about your parents?â
âMy father died when I was little more than a baby, I donât remember him at all. My motherâ¦â She hesitated. âShe opened a flower shop after my fatherâs death and has always worked hard to make it a success, so I didnât see too much of her. My grandma more or less brought the three of us up, but she died a few years ago after a short illness.â
âAnd you miss her,â he said softly, his eyes intent on her face.
Oh, yes. She dreaded to think of the adult she might have become but for her grandmother. For every negative spoken about her by her mother, her grandma had spoken a loving positive. In the same way sheâd always known her mother didnât like her very much, sheâd known she was her grandmotherâs favourite and it had been balm to a little girlâs bruised heart. âYes, I miss her,â she said quietly. More than words could express.
Since her grandmotherâs death just before she had left university and she and Jennie and Susan had come to London, she had stopped returning home to Kent for Christmas. There had been no point. Her sisters were wrapped up in their own lives and virtual strangers to her now, and in previous years her mother had spent every Christmas re-emphasising in word and deed what a failure she considered her youngest daughter. Without her beloved grandmother as a buffer, home would have been unendurable.
From the first, she had maintained she was perfectly happy to stay at the flat and enjoy a quiet Christmas, but her friends wouldnât hear of it. Jennie and Susan had taken it in turns to invite her to their respective homes, and as both girls came from large friendly families the Christmas break had turned into something to look forward to rather than dread. Strangely, though, she found she missed her grandmother more at Christmas time than any other. Or perhaps it wasnât so strange.
Zac brought her attention back to himself when he said, âChristmas in my home town is always a big deal. Snow, carols, church on Christmas Day, followed by too big a lunch so we have to walk the dogs for hours in the afternoon to work up an appetite for high tea.â His voice was easy, relaxed, but she was aware his gaze was tight on her face.
Rachel got the feeling he was talking to give her time to compose herself, and she found she needed it. Taking a deep breath, she said, âSnow guaranteed, I suppose? Itâs very hit and miss here in the south of England. Susan lives near Scotland, though, and last year it was Christmas-card stuff. We even went on a horse-drawn sleigh ride.â
âYou spent Christmas with Susanâs family last year? You didnât go home?â
Rachel bit her lip. She might have known he would pick up on it. Zac didnât miss a thing. âNo, I didnât go home.â
He made no further comment, instead taking the conversation into less personal paths. They had covered politics, music, books and even the current economic climate by the time