the meals, teach us to cook to take responsibility for ourselves.â
âSo youâre a good cook, then?â
Another draw on another cigarette. âUsed to be. But if you donât keep workinâ at somethinâ you stop beinâ good at it. Like a lot of things.â
He gives a smile. âVery wise.â
She looks at him, unsure whether heâs laughing at her or not. Just âcos Iâve been in prison most of my life doesnât make me thick, you know.â
âI knowâ, he says. âIâve seen your report. I know how high your IQ is.â
She sits back, pleased with this.
âSo,â he says, âFenton Hall. What kind of activities did they do there?â
âThere were lessons. But some of the boys couldnât read or write so they were pretty basic. Iâd always liked books so they just used to give me somethinâ to read while the rest were catchinâ up and Iâd be away. Loved it. Especially if it was summer, then I could sit outside and read. Just perfect. Felt really alone and at peace then. Really safe.â
âWhat kind of things did you like to read?â
âWell, there wasnât much choice. Most of the books were for the boys, and the boys, like I said, couldnât read very well. So I used to read Mr and Mrs Everettâs stuff. They didnât mind. I read Graham Greene but he could be a bit complicated. Agatha Christie. Loved Agatha Christie.â She smiles.
âWhat was it about her that got to you?â
She thinks. âThere was murder. But that didnât really matter, it was only there to get things goinâ. And they always happened somewhere like Fenton Hall, so I could relate to it like that, you know? But the thing I really loved about them was, that no matter how bad things got, thereâd always be someone there to sort it out. Make the world safe and everything would be all right again at the end. Thatâs what Mr and Mrs Everett did. Thatâs what Fenton Hall did. And thatâs all I ever wanted. Someone to make it all right at the end. But it didnât last. Nothinâ good ever does in this life.â
âWhat happened?â
She sighs. Stubs out her cigarette.
âI got moved to prison. And thatâs when things really went bad.â
5
Jack Smeaton sat on the wall outside the school canteen, looked around again. Police were onsite and journalists were camped outside. Floral tributes at the huge metal gates were increasing. News of the dead boy had gone round the school like several Mexican waves, each time with a different aspect. From initial shock, horror and loss, to a desperate need for news of the killer being caught, then, when no news was forthcoming, filling the void with prurient, lurid speculation. Some of the kids seemed to enjoy that part of the process the most. That and hurling abuse at the police. But lessons had been suspended and counsellors brought in. All over the school, children from all years were coming together, talking in little groups. They would talk so much, get so involved they would be overcome with emotion and then the counsellors would have to step in.
Jack just tried to keep his head down, concentrate on getting through the day. He hadnât made many friends yet so, although he had joined in with some of the others on the only topic of conversation, he spent his breaktimes alone. He didnât like a lot of the other kids and the feeling seemed to be mutual so far. He was sensitive to emotions and environments and this place was no exception. He could feel fear in the school round the estate. Even without the events of the day. And where there was fear, violence wasnât far behind.
So engrossed was he in his own thoughts, he didnât hear them until they were on him.
âWhereâd you get them from then?â
Jack looked up. The boy who had stared at him that morning was standing in front of him, his runty