ever, and was lying chilly as ice in her coffin, and that was all.
At those times, she thought about Hans Christian Andersenâs fairy tales, too, lying concealed beneath the shed.
As they crossed the hallway to the crowded living-room, Johnson Ward laid his hand reassuringly on Elizabethâs shoulder. âWhen my older brother Billy died, I was so cut up that I couldnât eat and I couldnât write and I couldnât even think. You know what thatâs like, when you canât even
think?
Your headâs no more good to you than an empty cooking-pot. You can bang on your skull with your knuckles for all youâre worth, but thereâs nothing inside, only echoes. Those were bad, bad times for me, those were.â
He stopped, and looked down at her. âBut do you know what happened? I went to Havana, for the principal purpose of getting drunk. I gambled at the casino, and I smoked big cigars the size of telegraph poles, and I got drunk. And I was sitting in the Plaza de Armas, with a mouth that felt like a catâs favourite cushion and a headache that felt like an iron Derby that was half a size too small, when a Cuban boy came up to me, and stood staring at me. He was wearing a white shirt and khaki pants and sandals with open toes. He stood and stared at me and I sat and stared back at him. And do you know what he said? He said, âBronco, donât you recognize me?â
âWell, I stared at him even harder, and maybe there was something familiar about his eyes, but that was all. But then he said, âItâs Billy, your brother.â
âYou can imagine that I went shivery all over, just like somebody had emptied an ice-bucket down the back of my shirt. I said, âIt canât be. Billyâs dead.â But he stepped a little closer and he looked at me just the way Iâm looking at you now, and he said, âItâs Billy. I just want to tell you that everythingâs fine.â
â âFine?â I said. âYouâve turned into a Cuban and everythingâs fine?â â
â âCouldnât be sweller,â he said. And he turned around, and walked across the plaza, and that was the last I ever saw of him.â
âWas he a
ghost?
â asked Elizabeth, in awe.
âUh-unh. I donât think so. I think he was just Billy.â
Elizabeth wanted to ask Johnson Ward if it might be possible to find Peggy, too, amongst the crowds around the Plaza de Armas, or anywhere else for that matter. But before she could do so, mommy came across the room, black-veiled, tilting slightly.
âJohnson!â she exclaimed, and flung her arms around him.
âHello, Margaret. Please accept my condolences, and Vitaâs, too.â
Mommy turned her head this way and that. âYou didnât bring Vita?â
âVitaâs not too well. Nothing serious, but she couldnât face the journey.â
âIâm sorry,â said mommy, in a tone of voice that suggested that she wasnât sorry in the slightest. âHowâs the writing coming along?â She pecked at the air with two black-gloved fingers, in a charade of somebody trying to find their way around the keyboard of a typewriter.
âSlow,â said Johnson Ward. âYou know me. Three words a day if Iâm lucky.â
âIâm surprised you can still find anything to write about, after
Bitter Fruit.
â
âWell . . .
Bitter Fruit
did have a little of everything in it, didnât it?â Johnson Ward smiled.
Elizabethâs mommy swayed, as if she were trying to keep her balance on the deck of a ship. âYou know what the trouble with you writers is, donât you?â she demanded.
âIâm sure youâre going to tell me, Margaret, whether I know or not.â
âThe trouble with you writers is that you think youâre realer than we are.â
âWe do?â
âOf course you do! But thatâs
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