mirrors I unzipped my make-up bag and slowly started taking off the goop. Cold cream first, then careful soothing strokes as I wiped away the grime. It felt good to remove that stuff and find my own skin underneath it all. Here I am again. Still me.
I could feel Abe watching my reflection. âYou okay?â she asked in a grumpy way.
I shrugged. âKind of deserved it, didnât I?â Then I threw some tissues in the bin and turned to look at Abe â the real Abe, not her reflection. âI know I made you look bad, Abe,â I said. âIâm really sorry.â
She glanced at me with a nod and a small smile. Then she leaned in to her reflection â touching up rather than taking off her make-up. âWell, Saph, the way you dance sometimes makes me look better than I deserve. So I reckon weâre even.â
A snort from me. Without make-up it was easy to see my cheeks flush red. But I was glad that everything was okay again with Abe and me.
By the time I walked out to the carpark to find Dad, I was almost calm. It felt good to be finally away from the bright lights and watching eyes.
âYouâre late,â Dad said, as soon as I fell into the seat beside him.
âSorry.â I seemed to be saying that a lot. âI . . . took longer getting changed than usual.â
Dad looked again at the clock display, but he didnât take it further.
âDid you see the game?â I asked breezily and pushed my shoes into the pompom bags on the floor in front of me. A heavy tiredness had sunk into my legs. My head felt numb.
âIt was an important win,â Dad said, leaning forward in his seat as he changed lanes.
âDid you see us dance the opening number?â I asked tentatively.
âNo. They cut straight to the game.â
I breathed a sigh of relief â my stuff-up hadnât been recorded for eternity. Just in that dark place where you keep memories that youâd rather forget.
Dad glanced at me in the dim light, then back at the road. âMagicâs in the quarterfinal, so you have an extra game?â he asked with a slight growl. The cabin lit up as a car loomed behind us, then drove past.
I nodded. âBut Meganâs happy to drive me,â I said slowly. âJust for the quarterfinal, will you let me get a lift with her, Dad?â
I could see the muscles bulge in Dadâs jaw. His hands gripped the steering wheel. But he didnât say anything for a while. When he did speak, it came out like a slow sigh, âSaph, Iâm not in the mood.â
I didnât blame him really. Working sixty hours a week, then having to drive me around on his night off.
But part of me must have blamed him â for being tired, or just for being stubborn â because I blurted out, âWell, Iâve organised a lift to stop you having to do this. Donât try to make me feel guilty!â The high whine of my voice seemed to linger in the air.
Dad shook his head. âYouâre too young,â he growled.
I snorted and crossed my arms. Yeah? Abe would agree with you on that.
I set my face in an angry pout, and gave Dad the silent treatment for the rest of the drive home. It had been the night from hell.
Get this for an awesome daydream: a bright flat next to the beach, perhaps sharing with Summer, or just me on my own. Lazy chai teas down the street before driving to dance training in the city. Then long nights of slick professional dancing. A dream life, where Iâd meet my dream man . . .
â Guten Morgen , Saph, bin ich Sie uns könnte verbinden froh. â
On Monday morning, my wonderful daydream was interrupted by a bouncy German teacher. Mr Kissinger was rocking on his feet, and nodding eagerly.
âSorry, Sir?â I stretched out my legs, trying to shake off the daydream.
âGood morning, Saph. Iâm glad you could join us,â Mr Kissinger translated and did an enthusiastic jig.
Everyone had the