Samuel. The thought of you leaving probably tears him apart inside.”
Sam’s jaw dropped. “Jesse does not love me.”
Did he?
Sam’s heart started pounding faster as he relived every moment he had ever spent with Jesse McCaffrey. He knew he cared for Jesse. He always had. But except for the one kiss they had shared, and earlier in this very bedroom, Sam couldn’t think of a single instance where Jesse might have showed he cared, too.
“He doesn’t love me, Mom.” He was sure of it.
“Honey, Jesse McCaffrey has loved you since you were twenty-one years old.”
“Jesse may have wanted me since I was twenty-one, but he doesn’t love me. There’s a big difference.” Sam just wished there wasn’t. He couldn’t think of what he wouldn’t give to have Jesse McCaffrey care about him as more than his little brother’s best friend.
“Yes, Sam, I do love you.”
Sam’s eyes snapped up, and he gasped. He hadn’t realized that Jesse had walked into the room until he spoke. Sam’s first instinct was to run. After remembering how large and powerful Jesse had been when he became transformed, that thought instantly died. Jesse just would have hunted him down, and he knew it.
“Why do you think I kissed you?”
Good question, and one Sam didn’t really have an answer to. “Because you were curious?”
Jesse chuckled. “Yes, I was, but it was more than that. I was courting you.”
Sam couldn’t have been more shocked if Jesse had told him he was…well…a Lycan. “What do you mean courting?”
A self-deprecating smirk crossed over Jesse’s face as he walked farther into the room, heading over to one of the chairs by the fireplace. He sat down and then stared down at his legs for a moment as if gathering his thoughts.
Sam barely noticed when his mother slipped out of the room, but he did hear the door close behind her. He swallowed hard then looked between Jesse and the door. Could he reach the door before Jesse caught him?
“Would you prefer me to sit by the window, Sam?”
Sam glanced at the window on the far side of the bed. Jesse would have to run around the bed, or jump over it, to get to the doorway. It might just be enough time for him to escape if he needed to.
Sam felt shame shoot through him when Jesse sighed and stood up, lifting the chair and carrying it to the far side of the room. He sat back down, this time facing Sam.
“I do have handcuffs if you would prefer me to be tied up while we talk.”
Sam felt his face flush as he shook his head. He wasn’t to the handcuff stage—yet. On the other hand, he wasn’t sure the heat in his face came entirely from being scared of Jesse. The thought of tying the man up was playing havoc with his libido.
Sam quickly bunched the blankets up over his waist so that Jesse couldn’t see the signs of his arousal. He could feel his face flushing hot, but he hoped Jesse just assumed it was because of the situation. Sam wasn’t quite ready for Jesse to know how attracted he was to the man.
“I don’t want to scare you, Sam.”
“It’s kind of hard not to at this point.”
“Ask me whatever questions you have, and I will answer them openly and honestly.”
“All of them?”
Jesse nodded. “No question is off-limits.”
“Why did you kiss me?”
Jesse smiled, and it seemed like a real smile this time. “For as long as I knew you, you were just the housekeeper’s kid. My little brother’s best friend.”
Sam grimaced. He remembered. He couldn’t get Jesse to give him the time of day when he was growing up, even more so when he was a teenager. It didn’t help that Jesse was six years older than him and hanging out with the older crowd. Sam was just a pesky little kid.
“And then one day,” Jesse continued, “I was walking around the side of the house. You were sitting on the porch steps with Gabe. He said something to you, and you tossed your head back and laughed. It was like the sun had suddenly come out to shine just for