I love you. I have faith in you. Have faith in yourself. I’m always with you. I pray one day, if I’m still on this plane of existence, that we will find one another again.
You have a brother , Gavin, born just four minutes before you. Watch for him, for he will find you. You are twin souls. You are never far from one another.
I have left a talisman with you , tucked into your blanket. It will guide you. Keep you safe. Wear it always. Don’t forget that you are loved.
Blessed be my daughter.
Your loving mother,
Ezmera
I look up at Dan with tears streaming down my face. I am reeling with confusion and sadness . I have a brother? Dangers are coming for me? What the hell? Thoughts and confusion swarm my brain. I feel like I am suffocating, drowning in everything that has happened in the last twenty-four hours. I must be hyperventilating because Dan shoves my head between my knees and yells for me to just breathe. I try to take slow breaths and repeat to myself that I am strong. I can handle anything. Everything else will come in time. I don’t need to know everything right this minute. After about ten minutes I get my breathing back under control and stop freaking out. I sit up and have only one question on my mind.
Where is the talisman that my mother had left for me?
Dan g ets up and gets a glass of tap water for me to drink. He hands it to me as he sits himself in the chair close to mine.
“Are you feeling any better, Ells? What was in the letter that had you so upset?”
“I really don’t want to talk about it right now , Uncle Dan, if that’s okay?” I try to smile at him to soften my words.
“Sure it’s okay , sweetie.”
“But I do have one question. You mentioned earlier that my mother threw something out when she took me in. The letter also mentions some kind of talisman that was left with me. Do you know where it is? Or what happened to it?”
Dan r uns a weary hand over his face. “Sweetie, I really have no idea what Barbra did with it. It was beautiful though. It hung from a rope of silver. Had stones the color of your eyes and smaller moonstones mixed in with it.”
I just about fall out of my chair. That sounds just like the necklace that I have stashed under my pillow upstairs. I decide to keep quiet about having it. I really don’t know why, but it feels right, like it is a secret between me and my birth mom.
“Uncle Dan , I’m going to head up to my room for a shower, if that is okay? I just need some time to process. Thanks for being honest with me. And for everything that you did for me last night.”
“Ella girl, you know I would do anything for you. You are my little blackbird. I love you to pieces, girl. You just go on and shower and I’ll be here when you are done. Don’t forget to call your little friend now. The loud one has been blowing up my landline all morning,” he chuckles as he leaves the table to start on the breakfast clean up. I feel even worse as I notice that I never even touched anything on my plate.
The first thing I do when I get to my room is retrieve my necklace from under my pillow. Jessa will just have to wait for me to call her. This is so much more important right now. How can this be the same thing that my mother had left for me to wear? To protect and guide me? I think with confusion, which seems to be the running theme this morning. I decide to start wearing it. I don’t really believe anything about danger coming my way, but better to be safer than sorry in my book. I slip the necklace around my neck and snap the closure on the back. I look at myself in the mirror and I am surprised to see that it still seems to be sparkling from within when it touches any part of my skin. I am going to take the letter’s warning to heart and wear it from now on. Besides, it feels like I am home when I am in contact with it. I need all the comfort I can get right now. So many changes, so much new information to process and still the cyclone in my brain