leaned over and gave Jason a peck on the cheek.
Then she shuddered. She felt as if an icy finger had just traced a line down her spine.
âWhat is it?â
âOh, Jason,â she murmured. âI just realized.â
âRealized what?â
âDonât you see? It is too ghastly.â
Jason groaned. âYouâre as frustrating as ever. See what? What is ghastly?â
âThat ocean crossing. The accident. It should have been me.â
âWhat are you talking about?â
âI should have died on that ship, not Sarah.â She clutched his arm. âOh, Jason! I should be dead right now.â
Chapter
9
âY ou mustnât think that way,â Jason said sternly. âNot ever.â
âWhy not? Itâs the truth. I should be dead. I should be!â
âJane, stop that,â Jason ordered. âThe accident was not your fault. It wasnât anyoneâs fault. There was a horrible storm. The ship capsized. Itâs a tragedy. But you donât need to make it any worse by feeling guilty.â
Jason was right. She had not made that ship sink. There was no way she could have known that would happen. She would never have done anything to hurt Sarah.
But somehow these thoughts did absolutely nothingto lessen her pain. She and Sarah had switched places. And look what had happened.
Jane glanced over at Jason. She found him studying her with a strange expression on his face.
âWhat is it?â she demanded, instantly nervous.
âThere is something I must ask you,â he said. He gazed down at the ground, obviously embarrassed. âI came to Shadyside to see Sarah becauseâ Well, to put it bluntly, I was stunned by her behavior.â
âWhat do you mean?â
âYou know that Sarah and I had our differences. But I couldnât believe that she wouldnât even bother to write after learning of your death.â Jason cleared his throat. âWhy didnât you contact me after you learned that Sarah drowned? Didnât you realize how I would feel if I thought you were dead?â
âI only got your letterâthe letter you wrote to Sarahâtoday, right before I saw you,â she explained. âThomas slipped it into the pocket of his robe and forgot allââ
She stopped short.
Thomas.
The shock of seeing Jason had made her forget her husband for a moment.
Her name had been a fiction, but her marriage was real. And Thomas needed her now.
Jane looked toward the house. She couldnât see it from here. The woods were too thick.
Suddenly she had the worst feeling. A terrible premonition. Thomas was worse. She knew it. Jane jumped to her feet.
âNow what?â Jason asked, alarmed.
She began to run down the trail.
âWhere are you going?â he called after her.
âI have to be with Thomas!â she called back. âI must not leave his side again!â
She ran all the way back to the house.
When she burst into the kitchen, she found two maids chatting over steaming mugs of tea. They stared at her, looking surprised and a bit guilty.
âWho is with Thomas?â she cried.
âI think Dr. Pierce is still with him,â Clara assured her.
âYou think?â Jane cried.
âDo not worry, maâam,â Clara added. âIf Dr. Pierce has left, then your husband is sleeping, I am sure.â
âHe needs his rest more than anything,â the other maid, Susannah, agreed.
Jane didnât listen. She ran from the room. Up the stairs.
Halfway up the staircase, she stopped.
The bell she had placed beside Thomasâs bed. It was tinkling.
Again and again.
âThomas!â she cried.
She flew up the rest of the stairs. Down the hall. She flung open the door. Rushed into the room.
The small gold bell fell from Thomasâs hand. It clattered to the floor, rolling around and around in slow, lazy circles.
No!
Jane felt her stomach clench.
She ran to the
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