The Convulsion Factory by Brian Hodge Read Free Book Online

was looking for an alternative to MTV just to prove to himself that his mind wasn’t a one-track echo and that he ran across the Discovery Channel. They had all kinds of interesting stuff, like headhunters in the interior of Borneo and primal religious drug use in Amazon rain forests and all kinds of things he never even dreamed went on in the world, and then he really got entranced when he saw something about a tribe in Africa that practices ritual scarification. He tells her he likes their idea of resculpting your body to break up the monotony of skin and that it can be linked with spiritual meanings and symbolize what matters.
    “I guess you’re right,” Allison says, and then adds, “Any old wimp can get a tattoo or a navel ring.”
    He can tell she honestly approves and then she says how three years ago she threatened her parents that she would get a bone through her nose and they talked her into just getting a few extra holes pierced up the outer rim of her ears instead, which was all she’d really wanted in the first place.
    Breaktime is over soon and she has to rejoin the other kid at the counter, because even though the managers may suck, the rest are generally careful not to shaft each other. She hugs him and tells him to maybe come back after she’s off work and maybe they can hang out together awhile. Alex browses and buys a new CD by some band he’s never heard of, mainly because he likes the song titles, such as “The Blood is the Life” and “Ride the Meathook,” and thinks maybe they’ll become his new anthems.
    He leaves the mall and discovers that way out in the parking lot a small crowd has gathered around a well-dressed preacher sermonizing from atop his van. Alex skates up to listen to the message, which some are heckling and some are amening, and it turns out to be the evils of demon rock and roll.
    Alex yawns. The preacher goes on to cite statistics compiled by organizations Alex has never heard of, and tragic incidents he’s never heard of either, all irrefutable evidence of how demon rock has festered like a sore in the minds of America’s youth and turned them all into a horde of disrespectful, wayward delinquents who cause their long-suffering parents to wring their hands in anguish. The preacher explains how he subscribes to more than a dozen rock magazines and how appalled he is at the things he reads there, and then he asks for contributions, presumably so he can continue to subscribe to his magazines and continue to be appalled all for the good of America’s children. Alex leaves.
    He surfs the sidewalks home wishing he’d brought his Walkman along so he could pop in the new CD and fester some more, but wishing won’t make it happen, so he hurries home and walks into the house and it’s very quiet and that’s when he finds Mom on the couch with her empty glass and empty bottle of pills and realizes with a curiously hollow sensation that she has OD’d again.

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    Everybody who is anybody figures she simply lost track of how many she was taking and how much she was drinking. It’s happened before, though with less permanent results. Suicide isn’t really considered, after all, since she’s left no note, and anyway, she didn’t exactly make it all the way to the morgue.
    She’s brain dead, the doctor tells Alex and his father, and the first thing to pop into Alex’s mind is I could’ve told you that years ago . He hates himself for it a moment later and tries to remember something from when they tried Catholicism so he can do penance, but his memory of it isn’t that good.
    Dad takes leave of absence from work and spends a lot of time at Mom’s bedside and holds her limp hand and stares into a face that not only doesn’t recognize him, but worse, won’t even acknowledge him. Dad doesn’t shave much anymore, and after a couple weeks, Alex thinks maybe Dad should at least keep himself maintained, or else Mom will wake up and not know him for real. Pretty soon, Dad