discharge the moment Mr. Channing was safely out of the country,â Clara said wryly.
âExactly.â Lucy grinned. âIâm so glad you understand. I have no intentions of allowing anyone to tell me what I may or may not do. Not anymore,â she said firmly. âI am an adult, Clara, even if no one has realized that. I have my own resources, my own ambitions as it were, and I am much more intelligent than people, even my family, assume as well, but then no one suspects pert may well hide a fairly clever mind.â
âI suppose not.â
âBelieve me, no one expects blond curls and a cheery disposition to conceal anything other than fluff and nonsense and frivolity. Which has actually served me well in the past. Now, however, I am at a crossroads in my life and I find it all quite exciting. Even the fact that I donât entirely know what will happen next is exhilarating, although I do have something of a plan. But we will get to that later.â Lucy cast the other woman her brightest smile. âI should apologize. I have gone on and on and scarcely given you a moment to get a word in. Surely you have some questions for me. About the position or, well, something?â
âWell . . .â Clara thought for a moment. âI was told the position was not permanent, no more than a few months at the most. Is that because you plan to return to your own country?â
âI donât plan on it, but Iâm afraid thatâs whatâs going to happen. At some point my family will realize I am here alone and someone will be sent to drag me home. I have no idea how much time I have, but I should have at least six or eight weeks and hopefully longer.â She drew her brows together. âIâm not sure what will happen then. Iâve never defied my familyâs wishes before and Iâm not certain I have the courage to do so now. I suppose it all depends on what happens between now and then.â
âYou are at a crossroads, after all.â
âI am indeed. Now I can get on with it. Iâve agreed to all of Jacksonâs terms in exchange for his not contacting my family.â She ticked the points off on her finger. âI have engaged a companion. I promised to limit my activities to England. And I agreed to call on his cousin regularly.â
Claraâs brow rose. âA watchdog?â
âNot according to everything Iâve heard.â Lucy snorted back a laugh. âIn fact, Iâm looking forward to knowing her better. I think she, of anyone in Jacksonâs family, might actually understand.â
Clara nodded. âYour desire for independence.â
âYes, that andââLucy pausedââother things.â
âWhich does bring me to my next question. You said a watchdog would not suit your purposes at all. That, coupled with your question about my view of adventures and your saying you had a plan of sorts and you can now get on with it . . .â Claraâs eyes narrowed. âWhat are you up to, Miss Merryweather?â
âLucy,â she said firmly.
âVery well then, Lucy.â Clara paused. âTrust, you know, has to go both ways.â
âWithout a doubt,â Lucy said staunchly. âI shall carry your secrets to the grave.â
âAnd I have given you my word that I will keep yours. If we are indeed going to trust one another, then perhaps you should tell me exactly what you are planning.â
Lucy hadnât intended to tell her new companion her plans. Of course, she had intended to get rid of her at the first opportunity. But she hadnât expected Clara. And certainly hadnât expected to like her. Possibly she sensed a kindred spirit in the older woman, of independence perhaps, although it was more probable that Lucy had taken an immediate liking to Clara because she was so clearly not the kind of companion Jackson had had in mind.
Why not tell her? If she had misjudged