break societyâs conventions and offer assistance. A half smile toyed with his thin lips under his fashionable mustache.
Their audience leaned forward in a rustling slither of controlled anticipation. Her stepmotherâs crisp underskirts echoed like buckshot beside the aisle, while Portia could see from the corner of her eye Father smirking at an old social rival.
Uncle William, Aunt Viola, and their two young sons, Neil and Brian, sat in the following pew. Aunt Viola sniffled hard and briefly leaned her cheek against Uncle Williamâs shoulder. He tilted his head toward hers, offering comfort and understanding so simply that Portiaâs heart twisted.
Uncle Hal and Aunt Rosalind, with their bevy of daughters and single son, her golden Lindsay cousins, Uncle Morgan and Aunt Jessamyn, and everyone else were a blur too distant to be distinguished as individuals.
Dear Cynthia stood behind her, both hands full with hers and Portiaâs bouquets. Cynthiaâs happy marriage to her gallant British army officer had helped persuade Portia she too could have a successful union to a foreign aristocrat.
Out of all that great assembly, only one man stood on his feet.
Gareth Lowell watched her from the side aisle, his silver eyes like beacons set deep in his hardened face.
Something deep down inside her leaned toward him yet again. Sheâd wanted him from the day theyâd met, when sheâd arrived in San Francisco after Motherâs long, dreadful descent into death. Heâd just come in from the storm, windblown and clean-smelling like the promise of a new beginning. Heâd never reminded her of New Yorkâs gilded, cloying rituals.
Her two stepsisters finished their work and stepped back, leaving Portia isolated in front of the high altar.
âMy wife.â St. Arlesâs voice was clipped, British, and triumphant as brazen cymbals despite its quiet.
Her eyes widened to meet his. She blushed, thanking a merciful heaven sheâd sighted Gareth over St. Arlesâs shoulder. No suspicion dwelt in his eyes when his forefinger brought her chin up.
Her husband. Sheâd sworn to forsake all others and cleave only unto him.
He was what she wanted, wasnât he?
She stilled, her skin drifting somewhere beyond the ability of her frantic pulse to warm.
He slowly lowered his head to hers, his black eyes glinting like a shotgunâs muzzle.
What was he planning to do? He wasnât behaving like the groom at any wedding sheâd ever attended.
She managed a welcoming smile, gentler than her clumsy fingersâ frantic grip on her motherâs Bible.
He very deliberately licked her lips, flicking his tongue across them like a rattlesnake tasting the air for prey. Again and again, never seeking to penetrate or seduce like those fumbling boys, but only taunt and brand her.
She wrenched herself away from him and staggered back, flinging her free hand up.
âNo,â she whispered. How could she yield her body to a man who treated her like that?
St. Arles chuckled too softly to be heard by anyone except the archbishop. Satisfaction flickered through her bridegroomâs eyes, not some ridiculous prank.
Good God, heâd meant to frighten her.
Her blood ran colder than at her motherâs funeral.
The audience surged onto its feet, filling the great church with a storm of dissonant questions and clashing fabrics.
She had to leave. But where could she go? She was married to St. Arles.
Her lungs fought to draw breath fast enough to fuel her irregular pulse.
To have and to hold, for better or worseâ¦from this day forward.
Forever. She would be his wife for all of the days to come.
She lowered her hand as jerkily as a railroad engine stuttering to a halt. But she finished the motion and even added a half smile at the congregation, although she didnât dare look anyone in the eye.
Her father and stepmother erupted from their front pew and charged toward her.
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