convince Kate that I was dangerous.
There was no convincing Sunita otherwise. I had hurt her, using a flogger, riding crop and finally a cane, but it was consensual and I didn’t enjoy it. It didn’t make me erect, and all it did was make me consider the damage done to the tissues in a non-erotic and solely medical way.
I finally stood up to Lara and said that I was definitely not a sadist, did not respond sexually to inflicting pain, and that I wanted to find a sub who was more appropriate to my own tastes. In other words, not into pain. I had nothing against those whose tastes ran to S&M but it wasn’t for me. I tried it and I didn’t like it.
End of story.
Except the story was coming back to haunt me, potentially destroying the one relationship I’d had for years that actually made me feel love.
I arrived home a few hours later and Kate was fast asleep, her hair a mess on the pillow, the covers tucked under her chin.
I crept in beside her and didn’t wake her, falling asleep within moments, the comfort of her warm body next to mine a wonderful sleep aid.
In the morning, I woke up and slipped out of bed early, deciding to run a bath for us both. When I returned to the bedroom, naked, I saw that she was awake, and was lying on her back, rubbing her eyes.
"Would you like a nice bath? I feel like a soak."
She smiled and that was all the answer I needed.
She crept out of bed, still a little shy with me despite our relationship, and quickly brushed her teeth. I joined her at the sink and when we were finished, she slipped into the bath.
I took a moment to enjoy her as she did, her soft skin, softer curves, the angle of her cheeks all becoming so familiar to me. I felt as if I was imprinting her onto my memory as protection in case Dawn’s attempt to separate us was successful. I’d do everything I could to stop that, but I had learned the hard way that there was no controlling someone who didn’t want it. If Kate was going to listen to Dawn, it was because she preferred to hear her version of the story instead of mine.
Kate was the best thing that had happened to me since Maureen and I divorced. If I could keep her, make her mine, I would use every tool in my romantic and sexual toolbox to do so.
I stepped into the tub after she had submerged herself, noting a narrowing of her eyes, a contemplative expression on her face while she watched me.
"What's that look, Ms. Bennet? What's going on in that mind of yours?"
She smiled. "Drawing you naked. Or photographing you naked."
I made a face at that as I sat down, the water rising, threatening to overflow the rim.
"I don't want photos taken of me, but you could draw me, as long as you kept my face out of it…"
"If you want,” she said. “I'd love to draw or photograph that delicious body of yours. I've never drawn a male nude before or photographed one. I might get so aroused doing it that I'd need you to…" she said and raised her shoulder, her cheeks pink.
"Need me to what ?" I grinned and leaned forward, pulling her onto my lap in the water. "I'm always up for giving you a good fucking, Ms. Bennet, if that's what you need…"
I kissed her and ran my hands up and down her back. I pulled back and looked at her, tucking hair behind her ear. "I know you're always horny in the morning. How would you like to be fucked today? Tell me what that big heart of yours desires. I don't have much time, but I'm sure we could pull something off."
She shrugged a shoulder in her characteristic way. "I don't care, Drake. Whatever you think. Whatever you want. I know I'll enjoy it."
I nodded. "I'm considering."
I did consider. She was so delicious with her bright eyes and nicely pink skin from the heat of the water that I wanted to watch her pleasure herself. I wanted to watch her masturbate purely in a voyeuristic manner but I knew I’d be pushing it to ask her this now. Instead, she could use me as her Big.
"What I want ," I said, my voice low. "What I want