The Future of Our Past (The Remembrance Trilogy) by Kahlen Aymes Read Free Book Online

“I’m scared of losing more than your friendship, Julia.”
    “I don’t understand…”
    “Will you listen without stopping me? Take the risk of hearing what I have to say.” I whispered impatiently and rubbed my hand up and down her arm.
    “Okay,” she said quietly.
    “I’m scared of not having what we’re supposed to have if we don’t take the risk. These last four years have meant so much. Knowing you and having you near me has literally changed the course of my life. You’re my very best friend but…I feel so much closer to you than that. This thing with us…I can’t shake it.”
    She nodded, almost imperceptibly and looked down at her lap. “I know. Me, too.”
    I felt a little ray of hope surge within my chest and my heart sped up. This is Julia , I reminded myself. She knew me better than anyone else so I should just say what I needed to say.
    “Since the day we met, I’ve been fascinated by you, honey. It’s getting harder and harder to be around you and try to deny my feelings.”
    “Are you trying to say you’re attracted to me, Ryan? Because…I’m attracted to you, too. On many levels.” She dropped her eyes to our hands again.
    “In the club, the night I got my acceptance letter, I wanted to kiss you. Holding you drove me crazy, but, it was like we talked about then. I’m not willing to lose your friendship.”
    “If we cross that line, then what? Will we feel weird with each other or lose… this ? Will it make being apart even worse?”
    “Can it get any worse?” I asked quietly as my fingers threaded through hers.
    “I don’t have that answer, but it’s something I’ve asked myself,” she whispered.
    “What I do know, is that I’m not capable of fighting it anymore, and that no matter what happens, I will always want you in my life.” I searched her face as uncertainty flashed across her beautiful features.
    “Ryan, do you promise? Promise me ,” she begged as she leaned her forehead on mine. Her breath rushed over my face and I could literally taste how sweet she would be in her scent.
    “I promise.” I lowered my mouth and ghosted it over hers. My heart was thumping in my chest so fast I thought it would explode. This was the moment I’d waited for, for over three and a half years.
    Her tongue came out to lick my upper lip and my breath left me in a rush, my body tightening in response.
    I held her head with gentle hands as my mouth finally settled over hers. Our open mouths were soft and searching. It felt new and exciting, but also so right. Our lips knew exactly how to mirror each other and move in perfect unison. She sucked on my upper lip and then I sucked on her lower one. I thought I’d died and gone to heaven.
    “Julia, my God,” I groaned against her mouth as I gathered her close to me and lay her down on the bed. I moved over her and kissed her again and again. The nearness of her, what I’d been dreaming of for so long was finally within reach, but I wanted to take it slow, to savor every touch. “Kissing you is every bit as incredible as I’ve imagined it would be.”
    Her hands moved around my shoulders and into my hair as she pulled me closer. Knowing she wanted me, made me insane. I could feel the urgency in her body, as she surged against me, and I parted her legs with one of mine. This was a fantasy that I’d had a million times, and it was finally being fulfilled.
    She felt so good, her body molding perfectly to mine. I ground my hardness against her and she moaned against my mouth. “Ryan, uhh…”
    “Uhhh, say it again,” I begged against her mouth.
    “Ryan…” she gasped before my mouth devoured hers again and again, and the friction of our bodies making us both breathless. I cupped her breast and my body swelled even more as I teased the peak until it strained in my hand. I had to taste her, and urgently pushed her shirt up to expose her bare breasts. She was perfect. Round and firm with erect pink nipples.
    “You’re so