Square. My treat.â
I smiled brightly and jiggered my eyebrows.
She walked away as if I were a coat of paint on the wall. The door of the utility office slammed behind her. I called Harry to see what was up. He said interviewing white trash. When he asked what I was doing, I said not selling a lot of poâboys, be there in a few.
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The most distracting aspect of speaking to Jerrold Nelsonâs aunt, Billie Messer, was her constant brushing of insects from her face when none were there. I first suspected a neurosis, but realized it was her conditioned response to living in a house trailer with rusted-out screens and a busted AC. The fortyish Messer was Nelsonâs only surviving relative, and Harryâd spent the morning tracking her to a trailer court overrun by weeds and feral cats.
Billie Messer had been an exotic dancer in her younger days, but exotic drooped into pendulous and she now mixed the drinks sheâd once hustled. Dressed for work, Ms. Messer wore scuffed black spike heels, a miniskirt noire, and a frilly black bra straining with effort. Frizzed red hair framed outsized features I suspected looked either equine or enticing, depending upon time of night and substances abused. Harry and I leaned against a sun-hot rust-bucket car in her front yard while Billie Messer sucked cigarettes, waved off invisible bugs, and Cliffâs-noted her nephewâs life in a strangely seductive voice, like a hillbilly Tina Turner.
âPoor olâ Jerry werenât good for but one thing, and that happens in bed. He was damn good looking. Smart, too, more in the clever way than book kind. Always made out like he was smack on the edgeof being some famous model. Might a happened âcept he was so lazy. He made his way on his looks, though, shacking up with men or women. Didnât matter which, longâs they gave him money. I asked once, said, âJerrold, howâs come you do it with boys and girls both?â Know what he said? Said it all felt the same, so what did it matter? I said what you mean, all feels the same? He said, like nothing, thatâs how it feels, Aunt Billieâdonât feel up, donât feel down, just feels like nothing. You know what else he said?â
âWhat, Miss Messer?â Harry asked, truly curious.
âHe thought it was funny folks thought he was so good at doing it, you know, âcause he could go on at it for so long. He said when you donât feel nothing, thereâs nothing to make you stop. I asked wasnât there anything made him, you know, jump over the hill? He said he had to bear down hard on thinking about flying. Then heâd do it, heâd have hisâyou know.â Bessie Messer frowned, shook her shock of frizzed hair sadly, and swatted an unseen insect. âAinât that the damndest thing?â
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We headed across town to interview Terri Losidor, the woman whoâd filed charges against Nelson. Harry drove, I reclined in the rear talking to the back of his head. Some people claim their best thoughts arrive in the shower or astride the can; for me it was the backseat of a car. When I was a child and the bad things started at my house, Iâd tiptoe into the night and hide in the rear of our sedan, spending the night in wispy sleep before returning to bed at dawn. To this day I took comfort lying in the backseat, hands behind my head, watching the buildings and treetops flash by. My backseat meditations didnât bother Harry, he enjoyed driving, though he was a terrifying practitioner of it.
âYouâve seen maybe twenty times more jealousy-slash-revenge killings than me, Harry. How many have been as neat?â
âDoesnât mean anything. Theyâre all different.â
âCome on, Harry. How many have been so damned immaculate?â
Harry grunted; he liked to drive in silence, I liked to think aloud. He grudgingly elevated his right hand, thumb and index finger forming a
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