You know? And I think you feel the same way. I could stay, but what for? To make Grandma Rae happy? What about my happiness? I want money . And I want it now. Like right now . I mean, did you see that briefcase full of money, Mocha? All that currency. Iâm trying to get like that. I feel that I can hold my own against any nigga without an army behind me. Iâve been around this shit my whole life. Itâs only right that I take my rightful place in the game. Then take the throne; or one of them.â
When I was done, Mocha didnât say a word. Instead, she stared into my eyes, and I looked back wondering how much of an idiot she thought I was. When she finally did speak, there was something different in her voice.
âSadie, thereâs a lot more that comes with that shit. People get put on every day and never make it to Coopaâs level. Instead, they usually end up six feet under. You know, you watch the news just like I do. You know that these niggas are snakes, especially if they see a bitch getting paid big money. So are you sure you want to take a blind dive into this shit?â
I didnât even have to think about it.
âRats are going to rat, and snakes are going to hiss. The game will never change, Mocha, and the potential danger doesnât scare me . . . It excites me. Shit makes me want to cum. Iâm almost twenty years old, and I know this is what I want to do.â
âHow are you going to do it? Huh? Are you going to be out on the corners selling that shit yourself? So you can get bumped up by the feds?â
I could tell Mocha was getting frustrated, but I also could tell that she knew, like I knew, that my mind was made up. I shrugged my shoulders at her again.
âRay got me,â I answered her simply.
âRay doesnât want you to live that lifestyle. Didnât you hear what he was saying?â
âNo,â I shook my head disagreeing with her. I thought about my cousin, I knew him better than anyone, even his best friend. âHe wouldnât have let us see what went down if he was serious about me not being in the game.â I saw a look of understanding spread across Mochaâs face. âHe was testing us, Mocha. Donât you get it? I donât know what Ray has planned, but you heard what that dude said about Coopa, and I could tell by Rayâs face that it was true. I know my cousin; heâs just waiting for me to call.â
It took me a while to put two and two together, but Iâd finally figured it out. Ray could have easily dropped Mocha and me off at our dorm before he went to handle his business, but instead, he took us with him. He wanted to see how we reacted to the cutthroat life he lived. He had always been like that, ever since Iâd come to live with Grandma Rae. He was always testing me. But little did he know, I was ready. Mocha gave a long sigh and shook her head. Some of her curls hung loosely from her ponytail.
âOK, Sadie, if this is what you want . . . Iâm down. But, bitch, if I die, Iâm killing your ass.â
Chapter 6
While Mocha was in her English class, I decided to pay my Grandma Rae a visit. I felt a little guilty, especially since I was planning to go against her wishes with my schooling, but I couldnât help the fact that I missed her. I always liked to check on her just to see how she was getting along being in the house by herself. I used the key sheâd given me to enter her house, and, of course, I instantly smelled a wonderful aroma coming from the kitchen.
âGrandma Rae?â I yelled out into the one-story house, closing the door quietly behind me.
I took my coat off and put it on a hanger in the hallway closet. To my right was Grandma Raeâs living room. It was nice size with black leather furniture sitting on the softest tan carpet. There was a black wooden table in front of the furniture, and the entertainment center was against the wall. Her flat-screen
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