orange grove, but the vision was so powerful that he called out again.
âAnswer me, grandfather, is it you?â
As his eyes became accustomed to the darkness, Amed again made out the shedâs walls, and the tools lined up on makeshift shelves. The sun from the skylight made the scythes glimmer, along with the pruning shears and the ends of the shovels and saws. Amed glanced around him. The vision had vanished for good. He breathed deeply and placed the belt around his waist. His muscles tensed. He took a few hesitant steps.
âNow Iâm a real soldier.â
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Crouched behind a bush in the garden, Aziz saw his father leave the shed without Amed and go back to work in the orange grove. He wasnât surprised at his fatherâs choice. He waited for Amed to follow him out, but in vain. After a long while, Aziz decided to go and join Amed in the shed. Slowly, he opened the big door a crack.
âAmed, what are you doing?â
His brother didnât reply, so he stepped inside.
âI know youâre there. Answer me.â
âDonât come in.â
âWhy?â
âLeave me alone.â
Aziz advanced, slowly making out his brotherâs silhouette in the half light.
âWhat are you doing?â
âDonât come near me.â
âWhy?â
âItâs dangerous.â
Aziz froze. He heard his brother breathing noisily.
âWhatâs the matter?â
âI canât move.â
âAre you sick?â
âLeave.â
âWhy?â
âIâm wearing the belt and if I move . . .â
âYouâre ridiculous!â
âEverything will blow up. Go away!â
âIâm going to get Father,â said Aziz, frightened.
âYou believed me? Youâre stupid,â Amed shouted with a laugh, running at his brother so fast that he knocked him to the ground. âYouâre really stupid. The belt has no detonator!â
Aziz grabbed his brotherâs legs, and threw him to the ground in turn. The two fought wildly.
âIâll kill you!â
âGive me the belt, Iâm the one who should go!â
âIâm the one Father chose, Iâm the one who has to go.â
âI want to try it, take it off!â
âNever!â
Aziz hit his brother in the face. Amed stood up, dizzied. He took hold of a long scythe leaning against a wall.
âCome near and Iâll carve you into little pieces.â
âTry!â
âIâm serious, Aziz.â
The two brothers eyed each other without moving, each listening to the otherâs shallow breathing. They were still merely children. Something had changed, as if the darkness had imposed on their young bodies a density and a gravitas only an adult body could bear.
âIâm afraid to die, Aziz.â
Amed put down the scythe. His brother went to him.
âI know. Iâll go.â
âYou canât.â
âI will go, Amed.â
âWe canât disobey Father.â
âIâll take your place. Father wonât know.â
âHeâll notice.â
âNo. Believe me. Take it off,â begged Aziz.
Amed hesitated, then removed the belt with an abrupt gesture. Aziz took it and went to the back of the shed, to where the sunbeam from the skylight almost touched the ground. In the dancing light he scrutinized the object that would slaughter his peopleâs enemies and usher him into paradise. He was fascinated. The belt was made up of a dozen small cylindrical compartments filled with explosives.
Amed came to join him. âDo you think the dead can come back?â
âI donât know.â
âI think I saw Grandfather a while ago.â
âWhere?â
âThere,â said Amed, pointing to a spot in front of them.
âAre you sure?â
âIt was his face. He disappeared right away.â
âYou saw a ghost.â
âWhen you die, maybe youâll come back