fourth in a run of a hundred prints, you fool. There are only a hundred of these in the world. Isnât it beautiful?â
âI thought you didnât like mass-produced things,â I said, determinedly ungrateful.
He was hurt. âThe handwritten â4/100â makes it unique. Thatâs why prints are numbered.â He sighed. âYou donât like it, do you?â
I realised how selfish I was being and pretended that I did.
âMy wife calls houses like this âcamera-readyâ,â Sam K says. âThe minute I stepped over your threshold, I felt inferior.â
âYou should see the insides of our cars,â Kit tells him. âOr rather, our two dustbin-spillover areas on wheels. Iâve thought about leaving them on the pavement next to the wheelie bin on collection day, doors open â maybe the councilâd take pity on us.â
I stand up. Blood rushes to my head and the room tilts, blurs.I feel as if the different parts of my body are detaching from one another, breaking off and floating away. My head fills with a woolly throbbing. This keeps happening. My GP has no idea what the cause might be. Iâve had blood tests, scans, everything. Alice, my homeopath, thinks itâs a physical manifestation of emotional distress.
It takes a few seconds for the dizziness to pass. âYou might as well go,â I say to Sam K, as soon as Iâm able to speak. âYou obviously donât believe me, so why should we both waste our time?â
He looks at me thoughtfully. âWhat makes you think I donât believe you?â
âI might be delusional but Iâm not stupid,â I snap at him. âYouâre sitting there eating biscuits, chatting about wheelie bins and interior décorâ¦â
âIt helps me to find out a little about you and Kit.â Heâs unruffled by my outburst. âI want to know who you are as well as what you saw.â
The holistic approach
. Alice would be on his side.
âI saw nothing.â Kit shrugs.
âThatâs not true,â I tell him. âYou didnât see
nothing
â you saw a lounge with no womanâs body in it. Thatâs not nothing.â
âWhy a property website, Connie?â Sam K asks again. âWhy Cambridge?â
âA few years ago we thought about moving there,â I say, unable to look him in the eye. âWe decided not to, butâ¦sometimes I still think about it, andâ¦I donât know, it was a spur of the moment thing â there was no particular reason behind it. I look up all sorts of strange things on the internet when Iâm restless and canât sleep.â
âSo, last night, you logged onto Roundthehouses andâ¦what? Talk me through it, step by step.â
âI searched for properties for sale in Cambridge, saw 11 Bentley Grove, called up the detailsâ¦â
âDid you look at any other houses?â
âNo.â
âWhy not? What made you pick 11 Bentley Grove?â
âI donât know. It was third on the list that came up. I liked the look of it, so I clicked on it.â I sit down again. âFirst I looked at the photographs of the rooms, and then I saw there was a virtual tour, so I thought I might as well have a look at that too.â
Kit reaches over and squeezes my hand.
âHow much was it on for?â Sam K asks.
Why does he want to know that? â1.2 million.â
âWould that be affordable for you?â
âNo. Not even close,â I say.
âSo you have no plans to move to Cambridge, and 11 Bentley Grove would be out of reach price-wise, but you were still interested enough to take the virtual tour, even after youâd looked at the photographs?â
âYou must know what itâs like.â I try not to sound defensive. âYou find yourself clicking on one thing after another. Not for any good reason, justâ¦â
âShe was