grades do not mean you are dumb, and I am not in troubleâand if you see that Jenny Ashton, you tell her to start fixing those rotten rumors before I fix her!â
When I went to my locker after first period, Charlotte Kendall came up to me. Charlotte wears a different colored ribbon in her hair every day, and she always holds her books and her notebook up tight against her stomach with both arms. She whispered, but Charlotteâs whisper carries about ten feet. So we had an audience.
âNoraâI heard about your grades. Your averagesâthey must be ruined ! What are you going to do? Do you think youâre going to get left back? I couldnât stand it if you got left back.â
I smiled as best as I could. âItâs okay, Charlotte. I wonât get left back, I promise.â
âWell,â she said, âif thereâs anything I can help you with, just ask me, okay? Because I got almost straight As, and I really would help you if you wanted, okay?â
I looked hard at Charlotte, testing for acidin her face or her eyes. Not a traceâonly sweetness. Charlotte meant every word. And she wasnât bragging about her grades, just stating a fact.
So I smiled and said, âThanks, Charlotte. That means a lot to me.â And it did. Charlotte truly felt bad for me. She helped me remember that as far as everyone else was concerned, I was going through a crisis, an ordeal.
Because for everyone else it was an absolute fact that fifth-grade grades mattered. My grades made me look like that dead Sciurus carolinensis on the road out in front of the school.
And in less than three hours, Dr. Trindler was going to get out his measuring tools and try to figure out just how flat this squirrel really was.
nine
CORNERED
I t was raining at lunchtime, so I got a pass to go to the library. Indoor recess in the gym was always noisy and confused, and the library was always just the opposite.
I went to a table near the back wall to do my math homework. I was whipping through the sixth problem when a voice said, âNora?â
I jumped a mile. I hadnât heard Mrs. Byrne come up behind me. She smiled and said, âSorry to startle you. Sometimes this carpet is almost too quiet. May I talk with you over at the front desk?â
âSure,â I said, and I got up and followed her.
She said, âBack here,â and she motioned me behind the desk to the long work counter. âI want you to read something I printed out yesterday.â Then she handed me ten or fifteen pieces of paper that were stapled together.
I knew instantly. I knew what I was holding. I pretended to read the first sheet, but I hardlysaw the words. My thinking had kicked up into overdrive. I was in trouble. I needed a way out. I needed a major distractionâsomething like a fire drill, or maybe an earthquake.
It took a lot of effort not to start breathing fast, and I was afraid my cheeks would turn bright red. I turned to the second page and then the third, barely reading, just stalling for time.
Finally I had to say something, so I said, âIt looks like a list.â
Mrs. Byrne said, âTurn to page five, Nora, and read some of the entries out loudâbut please keep your voice down.â
I skipped ahead and started to read. ââMIT Internet Registration home page; Issues in light wave theory; JaneGoodall.org home page; Fuel cell technology comes of age; Hybrid vehicles find new homes; Cold fusion anomalies; Field Museum Egyptology Department; Richard Feynmanâs lecture onâââ
Mrs. Byrne interrupted and said, âThank you, Nora. Thatâs enough. Can you tell me what youâve been reading?â
âSomething from the computer, right?â I looked into her face.
She wasnât buying my innocent act. Not even a little bit.
Mrs. Byrne shook her head. âItâs more like something from your computer, Nora. More precisely, that information is