wanted to take a class at the vocational school just when heâd started learning about the dairy operation, she could imagine his reaction.
âCould be. Iâll ask him when I get a chanceââ Barbie began.
âNo!â The word came out far more emphatically than Judith intended, but somehow she had to stop Barbie from saying something that might cause a quarrel today of all days. âI mean, please donât say anything to him.â
âWhy not? And donât tell me nothingâs wrong again, because I just donât believe it. If you donât want me to put my foot into the trouble, youâd better tell me whatâs going on.â Barbieâs persistence was legendary. When she wanted something, sheâd never let go.
âPlease, Barbie.â Judith clasped her hands, trying to convey her urgency. âIâd rather not talk about it, at least not now.â Sheâd have to say something more, she knew. Sheâd just whetted Barbieâs curiosity. âItâs just that Isaac is so set on Joseph getting serious about the dairy farm, and I . . . well, Iâd like to speak to Joseph about it myself, quietly, before anyone else hears.â
Barbie studied her face, her blue eyes intent. Then she nodded. âOkay. Donât worry.â Her dimple appeared briefly. âI know you think Iâm a terrible chatterbox, but I can keep my mouth shut when I want. I wonât say anything.â
âDenke, Barbie.â Judith felt as if she could breathe again.âLetâs just get through the birthday first. Then Iâll figure it all out.â She would, wouldnât she?
âI hear a buggy,â Barbie exclaimed, turning to look out the window. âItâs Isaacâs cousins, here first to celebrate.â
Isaacâs cousins. They would know the significance of this day, even though she hadnât. If Isaac wasnât there to welcome themâ
But he was. He came walking over from the generator shed just as they were pulling up. Isaac was putting up a good front, but Judith knew him too well to be fooled. He was hating every second of this party before it had even begun.
Her glance shifted to Joseph, and her breath caught in her throat. Joseph knew Isaac well, too. And Joseph knew exactly what his brother was feeling. Hurt and anger mingled in the boyâs face before he could manage to hide them.
Judith realized she was holding her hand against her heart, as if she could keep it from bursting with pain. Surely, if she loved Isaac and Joseph enough, she could heal this rift between them. She needed to believe that, but every day it became less and less likely that she could.
C HAPTER T HREE
J osephâs birthday party was drawing to an end, and as far as Isaac was concerned, that end couldnât come soon enough. Still, he had to admit that it hadnât been as painful as heâd thought it might be.
Judith probably deserved the credit for that. He knew sheâd been keeping him busy, pulling him into one task or another, or insisting that he chat with each person there. He felt a tiny edge of resentment at being managed as if he were one of the kinder, but it had worked, so who was he to argue with it?
Heâd done a good thing in marrying Judithâa very good thing. No man could ask for a better wife and mother. Sheâd taken on the responsibility of raising Joseph without a backward glance, something not every nineteen-year-old girl would do, that was certain-sure.
His gaze rested on her as she moved from one group to another seated in the backyard under the shade of the oak trees, making sure everyone had had plenty to eat and refilling lemonadeglasses. She still looked much as she had that day heâd taken her hand, standing in front of the ministers and the entire church district to make their promises. Her figure might be a tad curvier, but that was all to the good. Her thick brown