The Seamstress and the Wind by César Aira Read Free Book Online Page A

made him a married man as well. He’d gambled long before he got married, since his early youth, but in the case of gambling, like all vices, it wasn’t so much a matter of starting as of continuing. He was incorrigible. With him it was definitive. It was the mark of his life, the stigma. He gambled everything, the money he earned and what his wife earned too, in the form of undeferrable debts: the furniture, the house (luckily they rented), and the truck. He was always broke, strapped, and he sank from there to vertiginous depths. He always lost, like all true gamblers. It was a miracle that they survived, that they fed and dressed themselves and paid their bills and raised their son. Th e secret must have been that at times, by chance, he won, and with the marvelous imprudence of gamblers, who never think about tomorrow, he would spend all the winnings, down to the last cent, on catching up and getting on with things: so that the same gesture of short-sightedness that at night acted against the family, acted in its favor in the daytime. More miraculous, much more, was that it wasn’t known in the neighborhood, in the town (all of Pringles was one neighborhood, and information circulated as fast as a body in free fall). Of course activities of that kind are carried on with a certain discretion; but even so, it’s inconceivable that it wasn’t found out, that my mother, an intimate of Delia’s, didn’t know. Because, although discreet and nocturnal, it was a pastime obviously subject to indiscretions. And it had been going on for years, and it would continue for decades, before and after (before and after what?). And above all, it would have taken very little, any fact, the tiniest filament of information, to draw conclusions, for the whole thing to be explained . . . And even so, it was only found out many years later (clearly it was found out, otherwise I wouldn’t be writing this), I was no longer living in Pringles, one day, I’m not sure when, on one of my visits, Mamá knew it, she knew it very well, she was tired of knowing it, how else would the vicissitudes, the status quo of the Siffoni family be explained, without that piece of information? How would it have been explained from the beginning, from our prehistory in the neighborhood? Th at’s what I wonder: How? If no one knew!
    Th e stakes are always raised. Th e moon was rising . . . But it was not rising, just as the sun does not rise; the ascent is an illusion created by the turning of the earth . . . At the zenith of the betting, Ramón Siffoni, the moon-man, who by the mere gravitation of his mass made the tides of money rise, would lay on the table, or had already laid on the table, the supreme bet: his marriage.
    When he looked in the mirror again, the little blue car was still following him, pegged at a distance of one half mile. Ramón gave more credence now to his suspicion that they were following him. What to do? Accelerating more was useless, and could be counterproductive. He took his foot off the gas pedal and let his speed fall by itself; he always did that, it was an automatic thing. From a hundred it dropped to ninety, eighty, seventy . . . sixty . . . fifty, forty, thirty . . . My God! It was worse than just slamming on the brakes. Th e lunar landscape of the plateau had been fleeing past him, and now it fled forward, the transparent dust he was raising over the dirt road surrounded him like quicksilver . . . It was almost like advancing and retreating in the dimensions, not on the plateau. But when he glanced in the mirror again, there was the half mile, the sky-blue mouse . . .
    He accelerated again, like a lunatic: thirty, forty, fifty, sixty, seventy . . . eighty . . . ninety, a hundred, a hundred and ten, a hundred and twenty . . . the transparency had trouble keeping up with him, the moon leapt . . . Th e truck was crossing its own wake of dust, its own trajectory . . .
    When he looked in the mirror again . . . he couldn’t