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rolled right out of their sockets.” She wiped an invisible crumb from her lip, though she had yet to touch her doughnut.
    Norma put her napkin to her chest. “But how on earth are we supposed to understand unless a man thoroughly explains it?” she asked, doing her best Scarlett O’Hara.
    “It can always get worse,” Linda said. “You can’t let that little stuff get you down. You have to save the headache for the bigger stuff. Like the fact that they haven’t filled the Kotex machine since Truman was in office.”
    Linda was only twenty-three, but once she got married, she started speaking as though she was wise to the world in a way we single gals couldn’t possibly fathom—like we were still virgins or something. It got on our nerves, but we still looked to her as a kind of mother figure: the first to calm us when we wanted to tell off one of the men, or to smooth a flyaway hair. The one who’d tell us the appropriate time to let a man know he could get somewhere with us, and what to do if he didn’t call the next day.
    “If I have to listen to Anderson tell me one more time that my voice sounds too gravelly when I answer the phone, I swear to God,” Gail said. Walter Anderson, a bear cub of a man with perpetually uneven sideburns who looked as though he once played college football but had come to consider his walk from the bus stop to the office his daily exercise, oversaw the typing pool and other administrative operations in SR. He had been in the field during his OSS days and was assigned an office job shortly after the Agency formed in ’47. Never quite at home behind a desk, Anderson would pace the floor, seeking something or someone to take his pent-up frustrations out on. But after he did let someone have it, he was often remorseful, and overcompensated with boxes of doughnuts and fresh flowers in the break room. He preferred that we call him Walter, so we called him Anderson.
    Gail dabbed a twisted paper napkin into her water glass and blotted a spot of pink jelly on the cuff of her blouse. “Us government gals are relegated to the typewriter while overgrown children like Anderson tell us what to do.” Gail didn’t have a chip on her shoulder; it was more like a cement block. After earning an engineering degree from U.C. Berkeley, she had applied to NSF and Defense, only to be turned away for her “lack of an advanced degree”—code for her being a black woman. Gail knew for a fact that several former white male students with the same degree were already working there—and moving up in the ranks. With her savings low, she applied for typist positions and bounced around from one government gig to the next. By the time she got to the Agency, she was fed up that her real skills hadn’t been noticed. “And the other day, you know what he said to me?” Gail continued. “That he and his wife just love The Nat King Cole Show, and that I must be very proud to see him on television. When I asked what exactly I should be proud of, he just mumbled something and shuffled away.” She took a sip of coffee. “I am proud, but wasn’t about to let him know that.”
    “At least the hours are good,” chimed in Kathy Potter. Our eternal optimist with a four-inch shellacked bouffant, Kathy had come to the Agency with her older sister, Sarah, who had married an officer three months into the job and moved with him to a foreign station. With Sarah gone, Kathy was particularly quiet, but whenever she did speak, it was always to remind us the glass was half full.
    “Well, I’ll toast to nine to five,” Norma said, raising her mug, though no one else followed. She set it back down.
    “And the benefits,” Linda added. “When I worked in that dentist’s office after college, I didn’t even get dental insurance. Can you believe it? He replaced my cracked filling under the table, after hours, if you know what I mean. And that’s only because he wanted to, as he put it, get to know me better, and thought