truthâ could he ? For some reason this absurd notion impaired her ability to think straight.
âDonât say things like that!â
âThis is the new me, open and transparent.â
âIâm not beautiful, Iâm passably attractive.â Letting him see she was rattled seemed a bad idea. It wasnât too difficult to see how heâd achieved his reputation as a womaniser.
âAs they say,â he remarked with an almost offhand shrug, âitâs all in the eye of the beholder, and this beholder,â he said, touching his chest with an open hand, âsees beauty. I also see a kind heart.â
âA fact you ruthlessly exploited,â she reminded him, trying hard to cling to her sense of outrage.
âI was tempted,â he admitted, âbut I didnât think your charity would extend as far as a bed for the night.â
She gave a gasp of outrage. âYou were right!â Had he no shame?
âI feel much better now weâve sorted that out,â he confessed with a sigh. âI was wondering how I was going to bite the bullet and tell you Iâm actually quite respectable. I was hoping my disreputable appearance didnât account for all of the attraction, and if you have a thing about leatherâ¦â
âRespectable!â she choked incredulously. âAm I supposed to believe youâd ever have remembered me except as an amusing story to relate over dinner?â
âOh, believe it,â he said, placing his chin in one cupped hand that rested on the chair-back. Suddenly he wasnât laughing at all. Rachel thought the expression in his eyes should have carried a government health warning; happily she was immune to shallow flattery. She could be objective about the ripple of movement in her belly and the rash of gooseflesh that erupted over her hot skin.
âIt also makes it all much simpler to ask you out to dinner,â he added cheerfully.
âIâll speak slowly and clearly because I can now see my first impression of you was correctâ¦â
âWhat was your first impression?â
âMuscularly overdeveloped and intellectually undevelopedâa beautiful imbecile!â she flared in a goaded voice. She realised too late the revealing nature of this confession. âI have a fiancé,â she hurried on swiftly. âI donât date other men.â
âI donât see a ring,â he remarked sceptically.
âWe have an understanding.â
âHe didnât seem to understand you too well the other night. Nice bloke, no doubt, but a bit lacking in the imagination department.â
Of all the arrogant, impossible ⦠âFor your information Nigel is very imaginative,â she spat back.
âIâm happy for you,â he said solemnly. Confused, Rachel stared back. âA good sex life is important.â
âI didnât mean Nigel is imaginative in bed!â She hated knowing heâd made her flush to the roots of her hair.
âI didnât really think he was,â Benedict responded, nodding sympathetically.
The blood was pounding in her ears. âNigel is worth ten of you!â
âThatâs being a bit severe,â he remonstrated. âI did detect the very early stages of a paunch, but thatâs to be expected in men of a certain age. He seemed very well preserved to me. Tell me, are your parents still alive?â
This apparently inexplicable change of subject tipped the balance away from inarticulate fury and towards confusion. âNo, theyâre not; my aunt Janet brought me up.â Janet French had been there all her life and the recent loss of the lady with the indomitable spirit still hurt badly.
âAn all-female household,â he said triumphantly. âI thought so, and now thereâs just you and Charlie. Youâre looking for a father substitute, not a lover, Rachel.â
âLame-brained psycho-babble.â Her
Letting Go 2: Stepping Stones