starts flailing his arms. Iâm looking to strike again. Iâm looking to knock him out. I pull back my arm and throw a right uppercut that connects with his jaw. Heâs getting desperate to end the fight. He lunges at me, wrapping his arms around my waist, and tries to take me down, tackling me, but instead he smokes my head against the brick wall.
I feel my nose crack.
Then blood trickling down my chin.
I just roll him and get on top. I drive him into the floor. I donât stop. Heâs on his back, full throttle trying to get up. I pin him down with my knee, hook one arm around his neck, and pound him with shots. Iâm landing some big punches, just blazinâ him, until I feel somebodyâs hand yank me back off him.
âBoys, this is over!â Itâs Mr. Graves.
For the first time I notice how many people are watching. Itâs like the entire eighth grade is standing there in a circle around us, staring.
âOkay, people, showâs over. Go to class!â says Mr. Graves. Then he turns to me, âJack, go to the nurse.â
I stand there for a second.
My heart is pounding.
I can taste blood.
âGo!â Mr. Graves repeats, sounding mad.
Somehow a wad of paper towel emerges, and Owen hands it to me with a giant grin on his face. Before I leave, I glance down at Porter, still in a heap on the floor, his lip busted. You think youâre gonna knock me out? Not going to happen .
I watch him for a second and make sure to catch his eye. Then? I shake my head and toss him a smile.
On my way to the nurseâs office, my heart is beating like crazy ridiculous. I canât calm down. My body is shaking and my hand is throbbing. By now thereâs a crowd following me down the stairs. Everyoneâs hyped.
âBeast mode, bro!â (Brayden)
âYeeaah, boyyyy! Dominate!â (Trey)
âDudeâs a truck, but you smashed him!â (Demaryius)
âYouâre an assassin, Jacko!â (Dominic)
Sammy throws his arm around my shoulders. âYouâre an absolute stud! You rocked him, dude. Ground and pound! You had some big shots, man. He felt it!â
By the time I reach the door to the nurseâs office, itâs just me and Owen in the empty hallway. He hands over my backpack, while I try to keep the blood-soaked paper towel on my nose.
âYouâre still coming to my house tomorrow night, right?â he asks me.
âWell, Iââ I start, and reality sort of sets in. âIâll probably be grounded. I mean, my dadââ
âOh, man, bro.â Owen looks a little worried. âYour dad is going to lose it!â
âYeah, so . . . ,â I start, but itâs hard to talk with the blood and my nose.
âWell, call me when you find out, man.â
âYeah, I will,â I answer.
âJacko?â
I glance back.
Owen flashes me the biggest smile.
âThanks for shutting him up,â he says.
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I DONâT KNOW IF ITâS possible for you to picture me in my flimsy blue Thatcher gym shorts, orange Thatcher T-shirt, and sneakers, walking as fast as I can down the empty hall with tears streaming down my cheeks, but thatâs what I look like.
I look like a baby.
I look like a ridiculous baby, and I donât care.
I donât care because all that is on my mind is getting out of here, getting home, and never leaving my room again. Ever! I think about all the things Iâm going to not do as I move through the deserted hallwayâ
I will not play soccer!
I will not go to Claireâs birthday party!
I will never go to another birthday party again. Ever!!!!!!!!
I pass the closed doors of classes in session. I pass two teachers. I blow right by them.
âMiss? Young lady?â one calls out.
But I donât stop.
Apparently, I am suddenly