donât dare call it a friendship), perhaps itâs because I deserve it.
He wants to come to see me at home. âItâs a private matter, friend. I canât discuss it over the phone, nor can I invite you over to my house to discuss it, either,â said Vignale. We agreed to meet on Thursday night. Heâll come after dinner.
Wednesday 10 April
There is something about Avellaneda that attracts me. Thatâs obvious, but what is it?
Thursday 11 April
Itâs half an hour before dinner. Vignale is coming over tonight, but only Blanca and I will be here. Jaime and Esteban disappeared as soon as they found out he was coming. I donât blame them, though; I would have escaped, too.
A change has come over Blanca. She has colour in her cheeks now. And itâs not makeup because she retains this colour even after she washes her face. Sometimes she forgets that Iâm in the house and starts to sing. She doesnât have much of a voice, but she uses it well. I like hearing her sing. I wonder what goes through my sonsâ heads. Are they realizing a moment of high aspirations?
Friday 12 April
Last night, Vignale arrived at eleven and left at two oâclock in the morning. His problem is very simple: his sister-in-law is in love with him. It is worth transcribing, albeit roughly, Vignaleâs version of the story: âJust look, theyâve been living with us for the past six years. Six years isnât four days. Iâm not going to tell you that up till now Iâve never noticed Elvira. You already know sheâs very pretty. And if you were to see her in a bathing suit, you would be knocked speechless. But hey, looking is one thing, taking advantage is another. What do you expect? My wife is already middle-aged and, besides, doing the housework and taking care of the kids has exhausted her. You can imagine that after fifteen years of marriage, itâs not a matter of looking at her and ipso facto becoming aroused with passion. Furthermore, sometimes her periods last two weeks, so itâs very difficult for me to arrange my desires to coincide with her availability. The
truth is Iâm hungry for sex quite often, so I feast my eyes on calves of Elvira who, to make matters worse, always wears shorts in the house. The thing is that Elvira has misinterpreted the way I look at her; well, actually, she hasnât, but thereâs no need to make such a fuss. The fact of the matter is that if I had known Elvira was interested in me earlier, I wouldnât have paid her any attention because the last thing I want is to create a scandal and disrupt my own home, which has always been sacred to me. First, there was the exchange of glances and me pretending not to notice. But the other day she was wearing those shorts when she simply crossed her legs and I had no other choice but to say to her: âBe careful.â She replied: âI donât want to be careful,â and that was the last straw. Then she asked me if I was blind, said that I well knew that I wasnât unresponsive towards her, etc., etc. Although I was sure it was a waste of time and effort, I reminded her about her husband, that is to say, my brother-in-law, and you know what she said? âWho? That moron?â And the worse thing is that sheâs right, Francisco is a moron. Thatâs what mitigates my scruples a bit. What would you do in my place?â
In his place I wouldnât have any problems: first of all, I wouldnât have married that idiot woman, and second, I wouldnât be at all captivated by that other middle-aged womanâs soft flesh. But I couldnât tell him anything beyond the commonplace: âBe careful because you wonât be able to get rid of her. If you want to break up your family, then go ahead, but if your family means more to you than anything, then donât take the risk.â
He left feeling remorseful, preoccupied and undecided. I think, however, that