The Visiting Privilege by Joy Williams Read Free Book Online Page A

His theories of building are realistic but his quest is oneiric, he tells her. He sometimes talks about “sites.”
    They are getting rid of the dog. Jackson has been putting ads in the paper. He is enjoying this. He has been advertising for weeks. The dog is free and many people call. Jackson refuses all callers. For three weekends now, he and Jane have talked about nothing except the dog. They will simplify their life and they cannot stop thinking about it, this dog, this act, this choice that lies before them.
    The dog has crammed itself behind the pipes beneath the kitchen sink. David squats before him, blowing gently on his nose. The dog thumps his tail on the linoleum.
    “We’re getting rid of you, you know,” David says.
    It is Saturday evening and someone has stopped at the house to see the dog.
    “Is he a full-blooded collie,” the person asks. “Does he have papers?”
    “He doesn’t say.” Jackson smiles.
    After all these years, six, Jane is a little confused by Jackson. She sees this as her love for him. What would her love for him be if it were not this? In turn, she worries about her love for David. Jane does not think David is nice-looking. He has many worries, it seems. He weeps, he has rashes, he throws up. He has pale hair, pale skin. She does not know how she can go through all these days, each day, embarrassed for her son.
    Jane and Jackson lie in bed.
    “I love Sundays,” Jane says.
    Jackson wears a T-shirt. Jane slips her hand beneath it and strokes his chest. She is waiting. She sometimes fears that she is waiting for the waiting to end, fears that she seeks and requires only that recognition and none other. Jackson holds her without opening his eyes.
    It is Sunday. Jane pours milk into a pancake mix.
    Jackson says, “David, I want you to stop crying so much and I want you to stop pretending to bake in Mommy’s cupcake tins.” Jackson is angry, but then he laughs. After a moment, David laughs too.
    That afternoon, a woman and a little girl come to the house about the dog.
    “I told you on the phone, I’d give you some fresh eggs for him,” the woman says, thrusting a child’s sand bucket at Jane. “Even if you decide not to give the dog to us, the eggs are still yours.” She pauses at Jane’s hesitation. “Adams,” the woman says. “We’re here for the ad.”
    Jackson waves her to a chair and says, “Mrs. Adams, we seek no personal aggrandizement from our pet. Our only desire is that he be given a good home. A great many people have contacted us and now we must make a difficult decision. Where will he inspire the most contentment and where will he find canine fulfillment?”
    Jane brings the dog into the room.
    “There he is, Dorothy!” Mrs. Adams exclaims to the little girl. “Go over and pet him or something.”
    “It’s a nice dog,” Dorothy says. “I like him fine.”
    “She needs a dog,” Mrs. Adams says. “Coming over here, she said, ‘Mother, we could bring him home today in the back of the car. I could play with him tonight.’ Oh, she sure would like to have this dog. She lost her dog last week. Kicked to death by one of the horses. Must have broken every bone in his fluffy little body.”
    “What a pity!” Jackson exclaims.
    “And then there was the accident,” Mrs. Adams goes on. “Show them your arm, Dorothy. Why, I tell you, it almost came right off. Didn’t it, darling?”
    The girl rolls up the sleeve of her shirt. Her arm is a mess, complexly rearranged, a yellow matted wrinkle of scar tissue.
    “Actually,” Jackson says, “I’m afraid my wife has promised the dog to someone else.”
    After they leave, Jackson says, “These farm people crack me up.”
    The dog walks slowly back to the kitchen, swinging his high foolish hips. David wanders back to the breakfast table and picks up something, some piece of food. He chews it for a moment and then spits it out. He kneels down and spits it into the hot-air register.
    “David,” Jane says. She