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okay?” he
asked, his blue eyes sparkling at me. I felt a lump in my throat. I
wanted to yell and scream at him. Not yet, I was going to find out
the truth before I confronted him.
    “ Yes” I
smiled, which was difficult. If he had cheated on me, I would find
out. Some would say this was karma and I deserve this after all I
did to Blake. So maybe I couldn’t take the moral high ground. On
the other hand, this was a different situation and I needed to
know. God help him if he has.
     
    ***
    I looked at my reflection. I
looked a mess from the lack of sleep and the worry that had taken
over me. Maxwell was fast asleep still while I was stuck in the
world of uncertainly and I couldn't bring myself to talk to him
about it.
    I couldn't sit
here all day I had to get ready for work and gain some normality.
Also, it would help keep my mind from drifting off to worse
scenarios possible. Would he actually do
that to me?
    I picked up my hair brush and
began to brush my hair. The message wouldn't go away. I kept
reading it out loud in my head. 'It was nice seeing you again. I
really enjoyed it. Not so long next time xxx'
    I kept telling
myself it was innocent, it was just a friend he had run into. Yet,
this nagging doubt that he could have betrayed me was haunting me
constantly. Could he? Would he? Was I no
longer what he wanted?
    I shook my head. I didn't even
what to think of the thought of him not wanting me. My Mr Golden
rule... What would I be without him? I couldn't bare it and then on
the other hand I couldn't bear to be near him at the moment. I
applied a little lip gloss and left my dressing room.
    The whole car journey to work I
couldn't say one word to Jay. I was still lost in my own thoughts.
Paranoia was beginning to take over me. Maybe I should go and check
his office?
    There could be something like a
recite, email or anything just to give me peace of mind. Yes, I had
to go and check his office, fingers crossed it was all in my head
and I wouldn't find anything.
    As soon as I got a quiet moment
I made my way to my husband's office. I knew he was out in a
meeting and his assistant had gone with him. At least that way no
one was going to tell on me. I stepped inside and straight over to
his desk.
    I began to search the big pile
of papers stacked on his desk, then his computer and then I began
to ruffle through his draw.
    NOTHING!!
    I wasn't sure if that was good
or bad... Maybe he was just good at hiding his trail of deceit. I
looked over at the picture frame sat on his desk and my heart sank.
It was a picture of all four of us together just after Bailey was
born.
    The tears began to pour out and
I couldn't control them. Was my husband having an affair?
    There was a
knock on the door. Shit! I wasn't expecting anyone to come here. I quickly
closed the draws and cleaned up the paperwork I had scattered over
the desk.
    “ Come in” I
yelled, my voice breaking in places. I quickly wiped away the tears
and tried to gain my composure.
    The door opened and to my
surprise Riley walked in. He seemed shocked to see me. He couldn't
bring himself to make eye contact to with me which made me feel
uncomfortable. He placed his hands in his pockets and wouldn't come
any further into the room. He just remained staring down at the
floor.
    “ Hey” he
mumbled.
    “ Hey, what are
you doing here?” I blurted out, sadness hit me hard. He was the
only friend I had in this god forsaken place and now it felt like
we were strangers.
    “ I had a
meeting with Maxwell and he never showed up. So, I thought I would
come here and see what had happened.
    “ You had a
meeting with Maxwell? How come?”
    He looked up, stunned at my
question. “He's my agent.”
    Great, now not only was he
cheating on me but now stealing my clients without telling me. “And
he didn't show?” I asked, I think my mind was beginning to get the
better of me.
    “ No,” finally
his eyes met mine. “Something wrong, George?” He asked with
concern. I shook my head, I