Trade Me by Courtney Milan Read Free Book Online

we’ve already proven that we’re too different to get along in reality. Nobody will ever take care of me but myself, and I can’t let myself believe anything else.
    Friendship with Blake is not safe. It’s not even Facebook safe.
    I slip into a seat in the hall for the class we share a minute before lecture is scheduled to start. Blake always sits in the third row. Not that I’ve looked for him before; it’s just that he’s the kind of guy that I can’t help but notice.
    I’m taking out my notebook when there’s a rustle beside me.
    “Hey.”
    I swallow at the sound of that voice and turn my head. Blake is tall—so tall I have to tilt my head back to look at him. He’s standing beside my chair. I have nowhere to run, as I’m locked in place by the little desk arm in the theater seat. And it’s just as well, because running away right now would be ridiculous.
    “Mind if I sit next to you?”
    I do mind, actually. Next comes duck emoji and, according to my mental progression, the zombie holocaust. I wrestle with myself for a few moments before I decide that it’s better not to admit that I care.
    I shrug. “Go ahead.”
    He sits.
    There aren’t many students in the very back row. Blake sits immediately next to me, not leaving an empty seat between us, and that feels weird. It’s a violation of the rules of personal space. When there’s only one other person on the bus, you don’t sit right next to her. Not unless you know her.
    And it feels like Blake takes up a lot of room. Even though I can’t point to a single physical point of contact, I can sense him next to me. He doesn’t touch me. He doesn’t look at me. I can’t even smell him. He’s just…there, being Blake Reynolds, taking up a lecture hall’s worth of personal space in one single seat.
    When the professor begins, I have every excuse to ignore Blake. I try to do so. But he’s not ignoring me, and I can’t help but notice him noticing me.
    He takes desultory notes on a tablet, but mostly he listens. His head tilts in my direction occasionally.
    Nope. I’m not going to care. I ignore him harder, concentrating on the professor at the lectern below.
    I’m trying so hard
not
to pay attention to him that I jump when he slips a folded piece of bright yellow paper under my arm.
    It’s a flyer for some meeting. On the back, he’s scrawled a single sentence.
    After considerable thought, I have decided to take back my apology from the other day.
    My heart begins to beat a little more quickly. I’m not sure what he means by that. By the way he glances at me, he wants me to ask for an explanation.
    Still a nope. Not going to let Blake distract me. Especially if he’s decided to be a jerk. As soon as class is over, I’m going to click “ignore” on that damned friend request. And I’m not going to be distracted by him ever,
ever
again.
    I stare at the professor for five more minutes, not hearing a word of the lecture, until finally I give up.
    Are we nine,
I scrawl in return,
and passing notes in class?
Apparently we are.
    Instead of frowning when I hand this to him, the corner of his mouth lifts in appreciation.
    Don’t blame me,
he writes back
. If I had your number, I would have just texted you.
    He catches my eye as I look up from the paper. He holds my gaze, and a hint of electricity arcs between us.
    I swallow and scribble out a response.
I can’t tell if that’s a hint that you want it or a statement of fact.
    He ducks his head.
Cut me some slack. My media training didn’t cover the old-fashioned art of paper-based flirtation.
    That last word hits me first—
flirtation.
I feel a wave of heat. Is that what he’s doing?
    Maybe. I look over at him, look back at the paper, and feel that stupid, illogical flutter.
    Okay, definitely.
    And that’s when the first part hits me. Media training?
    If I needed proof that we are totally different animals, this is it. I’m not sure what
media training
entails. Thousands of dollars, I