strange…everything had gone so strange. But maybe even the smell of the drug could make shadows move? She ran through a health-class list of substances to avoid—heroin, PCP, angel dust, cocaine, crystal meth, special K. She didn’t know much about any of them. No one she knew did anything more than smoke weed or drink.
“Coming?” Dave called. She noticed the worn-down soles of his boots, the stains covering his jeans, the tightly corded muscles of his thin arms.
“I left my—,” she started to say, but then thought better of it. “Never mind.”
“It’s just the way Lolli is,” he said with a sad smile, looking at the sidewalk and not at Val’s eyes. “Nothing’s going to change her.”
Val looked around at the large building across the street and the concrete park they were standing in, with its dried-up and cracked pond, and an abandoned shopping cart. “If it’s so easy to get in this way, why did we come through the tunnels?”
Dave looked uncomfortable and he was silent for a moment. “Well, the financial district is pretty packed around five on a Friday, but it’s nearly empty on a Saturday. You don’t want to be coming up out of the sidewalk with a million people around.”
“Is that all?” Val asked.
“And I didn’t trust you,” Dave said.
Val tried to smile, because she guessed that he had a little faith in her now, but all she could think of was what would have happened if somewhere, walking through the tunnels, he had decided that he couldn’t trust her.
Val picked through a Dumpster. The food smells still made her gag, but after two previous trash piles, she was getting more used to them. She pushed aside mounds of shredded paper, but found only a few boards studded with nails, empty CD cases, and a broken picture frame.
“Hey, look at this!” Sketchy Dave called from the next bin. He emerged wearing a navy pea coat, one arm of it slightly ripped, and holding up a Styrofoam take-out box that looked like it was mostly filled with linguini in alfredo sauce. “You want some?” he asked, picking up a hunk of noodles and dropping them into his mouth.
She shook her head, disgusted but laughing.
Pedestrians were wending their way home from work, messenger bags and briefcases slung across their shoulders. None of them seemed to see Val or Dave. It was as if the two of them had become invisible, just part of the trash they were sorting through. It was the sort of thing that she’d heard about on television and in books. It was supposed to make you feel small, but she felt liberated. No one was looking at her or judging her based on whether her outfit matched or who her friends were. They didn’t see her at all.
“Isn’t it too late to find anything good?” Val asked, hopping down.
“Yeah, morning is the best time. Around now on the weekday, businesses are junking office stuff. We’ll see what’s around, then come back out near midnight, when restaurants toss off the day-old bread and vegetables. And then at dawn you go residential again—we’ll have to get there before the trucks pick up.”
“You can’t do this every day, though, right?” She looked at him incredulously.
“It’s always trash day somewhere.”
She glanced at a stack of magazines tied together with string. So far, she hadn’t found anything she thought was worth taking. “What exactly are we looking for?”
Dave ate the last of the linguini and tossed the box back into a Dumpster. “Take any porn. We can always sell that. And anything nice, I guess. If you think it’s nice, someone else probably will, too.”
“How about that?” She pointed to a rusted iron headboard leaning against an alley wall.
“Well,” he said, as if trying to be kind, “we could truck it up to one of those fancy little shops—they paint old stuff like this and resell it for big money—but they wouldn’t pay enough for the trouble it’d be.” He looked at the dimming light in the sky. “Shit. I have