you want to do?â
âAbout these sessions?â
She nodded.
He dropped his hand to the armrest. âIf Sheila and I donât work something out, we might as well call it quits.â
âIs that what you want?â
âDeep down, no. But I canât stand the way we are together. We share an apartment. Thatâs about it. Once in a while we share meals. But fun? Laughter? I want a wife whoâs a friend. Right about now, I donât like Sheila very much.â
âRight about now, youâre angry and hurt.â
âYouâre right. So what do I do?â
âCalm down. Wait for Sheila to do the same. Then talk. Quietly and sensibly. Tell her what you just told me. See what she says.â
Caroline could see the argument forming on Paulâs lips. He paused, clamped his lips together and finally nodded. When he stood to leave, she accompanied him to the door.
âIf either of you wants to talk during the week, you have my number. Try to get her back here, Paul. Even if you decide to terminate, a final session would be wise. Weâve left too many things up in the air. If I can sum up a little, share my thoughts with you both, youâll be in a better position to decide what to do from there.â
He nodded, thanked her, then left. Returning to her desk, Caroline sat quietly for a bit. As always happened at times like these, she reviewed the session, wondering what she might have done differently. Unfortunately, as always happened at times like these, her next client arrived before sheâd reached any conclusions.
By the time that client, plus two others, had come and gone, it was six oâclock. Pushing aside mental exhaustion, she joined her partners for their regular Thursday-night meeting. At its conclusion, she returned to her office to find her sister-in-law, Diane, slouched in a chair.
âI need to talk.â
âOh, Di,â Caroline whispered.
âHeâs impossible. I know heâs your brother, but Iâm your friend. I have no idea how to handle him.â
âAnd I do?â
âIf anybody does, itâs you. You know where heâs coming from, and besides, this is your specialty.â
Caroline thought of the session with the Valentes and felt a heavy weight inside. She thought of the follow-up phone call she still had to put through to her fatherâs doctors, and the one to her mother. She thought of the folders piled on the corner of her desk, waiting for the addition of notes from the day.
âLetâs go for drinks,â Diane suggested. âYou look as discouraged as I feel.â
At least sheâd noticed, Caroline mused. There were times when she wondered whether anyone thought of her feelings. But Diane was a friend, a good friend. They went back a long way and she felt deeply for Dianeâs present turmoil.
âOkay,â she said as she began to load the folders into a briefcase to take home. âA drink. Just one. I canât begin to tell you all I still have to do tonight.â
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It was after nine when she finally reached the loft. She didnât begrudge the time sheâd spent with Diane, because it had been productive. Over glasses of wine, theyâd discussed Dianeâs resentment of Carl, who was having a tough time at work and had chosen to blame it on his marriage. Over chefâs salads, theyâd discussed the effect of the separation on Amy, who was four years old and devoted to both her parents. Over raspberry sherbet, theyâd discussed the tug-of-war that the divorce settlement was becoming. And over lingering cups of coffee, theyâd discussed the fact that, when all was said and done, Diane still loved her husband.
Caroline had every intention of telling that to Carl, but not tonight. Not tonight. There was too much else to do. She was bone tired and mentally saturated.
And hot. The loft was as bad as it had been the night before.
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