drawing pictures he tore up before anyone could see them. Helping Jake find parts in the old cars for his customers. Dropping out of Sparta High School after he was kicked off the football team. He had slugged a teammate, an elephant-assed tackle who had called him Tonto. Didnât like football anyway. Too many rules. A white manâs game.
He didnât tell Gould any of it.
He remembered running away to Times Square, falling in with Doll and her pimp, Stick, getting busted by Sgt. Alfred Brooks. Once, heâd thought that was the best thing that had ever happened to him. Now, he wasnât so sure of anything.
He felt trapped in the hotel suite, a prisoner. He felt as helpless as he had at the Whitmore Hills Juvenile Correctional Facility. That was almost three years ago.
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He had a dream.
He was walking backward up to Donatelliâs Gym, slowly, feeling each step sag under his weight, hearing the old wood creak. He knew that Mr. Donatelli himself was waiting at the top of the three dark, narrow flights of stairs, and he knew the old man would be disappointed because it wasnât Alfred. He was waiting for Alfred to come back, the real contender, not for this mixed-blood who couldnât throw his combinations, who couldnât walk out of his prison.
But it was Jake sitting in a chair under a single naked bulb.
âIâm back, Jake. Iâm ready.â
Jake stared right through him as if he were invisible.
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Sonny woke up sweating. I donât exist to a dead man.
He borrowed Malikâs laptop. Told him he wanted to check out the flesh.
He sent a message to the Warrior Angel from his private e-mail address,
[email protected].
He wrote:
I donât know where to go.
8
T HE L AND R OVER was back on the highway, heading west, when Starkey spotted flashing police lights in a corner of the rearview mirror. He felt a dry lump rise in his throat. Itâs finished before it even started, he thought. He imagined pulling off the road, sitting like a child as the cop swaggered over, demanded a license he didnât have, registration and insurance he didnât know where to find. He would have to try very hard not to react to the copâs attitude, remember he was on a Mission for the Creator, that he wasnât here to act out for himself.
âAct out what?â asked PJ. The lump gagged him.
The police lights began to grow in the mirror like poisonous flowers.
He could make a run for it. The Land Rover had some power; he could feel it throb under him like a Thoroughbred stallion that wants to be turned loose. But it probably couldnât outrun a souped-up police cruiser, and even if it could,there would be dozens of cop cars up ahead waiting for him. Planes and helicopters if Stepdad got into the action. Been there, done that.
And thereâs always a chance of a crack-up in a high-speed chase. I can risk that for myself if the Mission depended on it, but I canât expose a Live One like PJ. The Archies are always hammering us on that. Youâre down there to save them, not hurt them.
âWho are the Archies?â asked PJ.
The red flower filled the mirror.
âThe Archangels are like the elders of the tribe, the chiefs who know almost everything.â
âAlmost?â
âOnly the Creator knows everything.â
He brought his foot up slowly on the accelerator.
âWhy are you slowing down?â
Sirens.
âLet me do the talking, PJ.â
âPlease donât call me PJ anymore.â Her voice cracked. âThatâs not me, PJ, I donât want to be that person who canâtâ¦â
The cop car swept past. He felt his breath follow it out of his body and down the highway.
ââ¦get dressed, who canât get on with her life. My name is Allysse.â
He waited until he could breathe again. âYou never said anything in Circle.â
âI didnât want to get anyone mad at me.â
That was