the man heâd once been and cleaning up his act. Heâd been honorably discharged from the army, too. But the damage to Evaline and his sons and his reputation as a surgeon had already been done. Sheâd filed for divorce.
As time had passed his PTSD had settled down and heâd felt confident enough to go back to work. That was when heâd figured there wasnât anything for him back home in Georgia anymore. His wife had divorced him. His oldest son had wanted nothing to do with him. So since his youngest son would be attending Pepperdine University in Malibu, California, heâd sought employment in the area, hoping to at least mend that relationship. St. Francis of the Valley Hospital had been willing to give him a chance as a staff surgeon. With less responsibility, not being the head of a department but just a staff guy for a change, not having to deal with his ex-wife and her ongoing complaints anymore and enjoying the eternal spring weather of Southern California, his stress level had reached a new low.
Until today, when heâd had to tell his friend Jim Gordon some pretty rotten newsâthat he had metastatic cancerâand they both knew thereâd be one hell of a battle ahead. Then, in a moment of weakness, seeing the distress Charlotte Johnson had been in, heâd let his gut take over and heâd moved in to comfort her. But it hadnât worked out that way, because heâd played with fire. He knew heâd thought about her far, far differently than any other colleague. That heâd been drawn into her dark and alluring beauty while sitting across from her, looking at patient slides, for the last year. Come to think of it, could he have been any slower? How long had he had a thing for her anyway? At least three-quarters of the last year, that was how long.
Could he blame himself for kissing her when sheâd fit into his arms so perfectly, and sheâd shown no signs of resisting him? Still, it had been completely improper and couldnât happen again because he wasnât ready to have one more woman reject him because his lower leg had been replaced with a high-tech prosthetic. Maybe it wasnât sexy, but it sure worked great, and heâd been running five miles a day to prove it for the last two years. In fact, heâd never been in better condition.
Ah, but Charlotte, she stirred forgotten feelings, that special lure of a woman that made him want to feel alive again. Something about her mix of confidence on the job and total insecurity in a social setting made him hope what they had in common might be enough to base a new relationship on. When heâd kissed her, because of her response, heâd got his hopes up that maybe she felt the same way. But sheâd stopped the kiss and an invisible barrier had seemed to surround her after that. Heâd pretended everything had been fine when heâd walked her to her carâhe hadnât noticed her need to be left aloneâbut the message had got through to him. Loud and clear.
He wandered into his galley kitchen and searched the refrigerator, hoping there might be something halfway interesting in the way of leftovers. He grabbed a bottle of sparkling water and guzzled some of it, enjoying the fizzy burn in his throat. Today heâd kissed the woman who held his interest more than any other since his high-school sweetheart. That was the good news. The bad news was he knew he couldnât do anything further about it. Her invisible force field wouldnât let him through, and if that wasnât enough, his boatload of baggage held him back.
Out of curiosity, though, he did have one littleâokay, monumentalâtest for Charlotte, one that would really determine her mettle before he totally gave up.
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Saturday was the annual charity fund-raiser five-and ten-kilometer run for St. Francis of the Valley trauma unit. Charlotte had signed up a while back and had forgotten to train