eventually, she thought, but she didn't have
that kind of time. All she had was twenty-four hours, and they were
fast running out.
Even after Martin's accident, she had never felt so helpless, so
alone—so vulnerable.
She thought, What am I going to do? And, fiercely, What can I do?
But she knew the answer to that, only too well. Everything she held
dear in this world was in danger, and she, uniquely, held the key to its
salvation.
This, she thought, is how an animal must feel when the trap closes
round it.
She sat for a long time, gazing, with dead eyes, into space. Then, her
mind made up, she went into the hall, lifted the telephone receiver,
and began, slowly, to dial.
CHAPTER THREE
DOWN by the reservoir, there was a breeze blowing off the water.
Joanna lifted her face to it gratefully as she strolled along the path
towards the dam. The car journey had seemed stifling, but that might
have been because she was so nervous.
She took a deep breath, then stood for a moment, watching the
manoeuvres of the solitary sailing dinghy using the sparkling expanse
of water. At the weekends, the water was alive with multi-coloured
sails, but on a mid-week afternoon privacy was almost guaranteed.
She glanced edgily at her watch. She'd arrived early, and there was
still a short while to go before their meeting.
Cal Blackstone had raised no objection, the previous evening, when
she had haltingly suggested the reservoir as a rendezvous. She
couldn't explain even now why she'd felt so desperate to face him on
neutral territory, in the open air, away from the confines of Chalfont
House.
She'd tried to work out in advance what she was going to say. In fact
she'd spent an entire sleepless night trying and discarding various
approaches to the subject. But nothing seemed right.
But then how could it? Joanna could almost believe, even now, that
this was simply a particularly vivid nightmare from which she would
soon thankfully waken. Maybe she should just raise her hands in
surrender and say, 'You win,' she thought, grimacing.
She retied the sleeves of the turquoise sweater she was wearing slung
across her shoulders more securely, and resumed her walk.
She'd spent the morning with her father, who was having what
Gresham called 'one of his far-off days'. He'd been sitting in his
wheelchair beside the open window, with an old photograph album
on his knees, slowly turning the pages as if they held the answer to
some mystery he was desperate to solve. Joanna had sat beside him,
trying to take an interest in the faded prints. After all, these picnics,
carriage outings and stiltedly posed groups constituted a large part of
the Chalfont family history, she'd thought, so it was a pity there were
so many missing, and that so few of the others had been captioned
with names. Her grandfather was instantly recognisable, of course,
and she'd supposed the rather downtrodden woman beside him in
some of the photos was her grandmother, but when she'd mentioned
this to her father he'd stared at her vaguely, and said, 'Joanna. That
was her name—Joanna.'
And as she'd been named after her, that was something his daughter
knew already.
She'd looked wistfully around the room, filled with her father's
favourite pieces of furniture. His desk from the study, a high-backed
armchair beside the fireplace, the pipe rack Simon had made for him
at school^ they were all there. Anything that might help him retain his
precarious hold on reality. The walls were hung with his best-loved
paintings too, and his collection of books was stored in a revolving
bookcase close to his chair.
Not that he read much these days, she thought, stifling a sigh. His
concentration span was too erratic for that. Gresham read to him,
mostly from the newspapers, and Joanna had also taken part since her
return, using mainly short pieces from anthologies, and poems that
she knew he liked. Sometimes he seemed to remember, but most of
the