didnât lock. Publishers are an honest bunchâor at least weâre all aware that none of us has anything worth stealing. Whatever the case, petty pilfering has never been a problem and since manuscripts are not intrinsically valuable, and we have so many, and so many copies of each one, nothing is ever locked up, or even put away. The usual filing system with manuscripts is much like Davidâs with everything: pile them up until they topple over. Theyâre not exactly gold bullion. Sandraâs office is particularly loaded. As well as copies of each manuscript that was being published, she had proofs, presenters, or sales folders, and finished books. And, being Sandra, all of this went back for the entire time sheâd been with the company. My office is much emptier, as about every six months or so the clutter and dust irritate me into getting a bin liner and throwing out everything that has already been published.
Much emptier. Much easier to find things.
I was edgy, and I was also now cross. It was one thirty, and Kit was half an hour late, which was excessive, even for him. I wanted to sort out the publicity and get back to the office for a three-thirty meeting. I tried calling him at home, but there was no answer. There was no point in trying his mobile, as although he carried it he usually forgot to turn it on, and he doesnât know how to access his voice mail. Heâd asked me to answer it a couple of weeks ago when he was driving, and I discovered he had messages going back six months, none of which he even knew were there.
The waiter came over to ask what name the bill should be in. He looked at Sandra, which was understandable. She was standard publicity issue, which meant blonde, pretty, and black-lycraed. I intervened. Sandra was used to paying for all her authors. âLovell,â I said, smiling brilliantly at him, âKit Lovell.â If Kit was going to be late, he could at least pay for it.
Sandra and I went and had lunch in the Grouchoâs restaurant at two, also on Kitâs bill. Apart from leaving increasingly irritable messages, there really wasnât any choice. By three when he hadnât still hadnât shown up, we went back to the office.
I didnât know whether to be annoyed or worried. Kit sounds flighty, but Iâve always found him totally professional. Heâd never have got as far as he has if he was as much a butterfly as he pretended. I figure it was a persona he had assumed when he was young, as a cover for insecurity, and now it was second nature. But heâd never stood me up before. If he is going to change his plans, which he does frequently, he always rings, or gets a message to me somehow. In fact, he usually claims that itâs me who does the standing up, a charge I no longer bother to deny, because it gives him such pleasure.
So where was he? Iâd called Miranda, in case heâd thought we were meeting at the office, but sheâd said sheâd worked at her desk on Bredaâs book throughout lunch, and heâd neither rung nor appeared. There wasnât much I could do. I could hardly start phoning hospitals and the police because someoneâs missed a meeting. Even I, with all my mothering instincts toward my authors, know that.
Mothering. Hell, I hadnât called my mother back yesterday. My parents had divorced years ago, and my father has a second family in Canada, where weâd spent part of my childhood. He and I are civil, but not close. Helena, on the other hand, lives, in mothering terms, absolutely on my doorstep, or, as she calls it âjust around the corner,â in St. Johnâs Wood, and we are as close as two people who had lives that are totally incomprehensible to each other can possibly be.
I donât really understand how my mother lives her life, much less why. From time to time I consider the possibility that she is really two people, or perhaps a Martian. The Martian