the way things were between us yesterday, but thatâs no reason to be stubborn aboutââ
âIâm not being stubborn. I only wish to make my own way here.â
Hell, heâd insulted her. âLet me start again. Your plans have been hampered, and itâs partly my fault that youâre here.â
She blinked a few times. âPartly your fault? Yesterday, this was all my fault for not having a mind of my own.â
He deserved that, he knew, so he raised his hands in mock surrender. âYou have a point, and Iâm sorry.â
He suddenly felt inarticulate and flustered talking to herâthis child who used to follow him and Diana around like a little lost puppy. Lord, how things had changed. He didnât feel as though he was talking to a lost puppy now.
âWhy donât you want to stay?â he asked, hoping to steer the conversation into gentler waters. âIf you want to earn your way, I could always hire you as a governess myself.â
âI donât want a charity position.â
âIt wouldnât be charity. Penelope and Charlie both need more than what Mrs. Dalton can give them. Iâve been considering hiring someone for quite a while, in factâ¦â He was rambling now. Lord Almighty, heâd really lost his touch.
Madeline shook her head. âIâm sorry, I canât.â
âCare to tell me why not?â
After a long pause, she gave a frustrated sigh as if he was forcing her to reveal more than she wanted to. âBecause if Diana accepts your proposal and comes here to marry you, Iâd rather be elsewhere.â
Adam gazed at her drawn expression and the way she was pursing her full lips. He hadnât expected Diana to be the reason Madeline would not want to stay. âAre there problems between you two?â
âNo, I just donât want to be dependent upon her.â
He rested his hands on his hips. âI can understand that you donât want to be in the position of servant to your sister, but it wouldnât be that way. You would be a member of the family.â
Their conversation stopped dead while they stood in the barn doorway, staring at each other. She seemed unable to think of a rebuttal.
For a second or two, he thought he had managed to persuade her, then she pressed her shoulders back and spoke firmly. âThank you for the kind offer, but I would prefer to be on my own. Iâd like to go to the fort tomorrow.â
He said yesâonly because he knew there was no point in arguing, for she was not going to give inâthen watched her turn away from him and walk back to the house, her gait swift and true.
Once again he saw the young Yorkshire lass who had never let anyone tell her what she could and could not do. Back in those days, that willfulness had frustrated him when heâd wanted to be alone with Diana, just as it frustrated him now, when he wanted to keep Madeline here, safe in his home.
Something was different today, however. Adam could feel his blood warming to her, for she was no longer the child she once was. She had become a woman, and he found himself admiring her for, of all things, knowing her own mind and settling for nothing less than what she wanted.
Chapter Five
A fter dinner, Madeline sat by the fire in the parlor, mending one of Penelopeâs caps, while the children played cards at the table. She had just threaded her needle, when two shiny black boots and a pair of muscular legs in tawny brown breeches appeared in her line of vision. She glanced up at Adam, who was gazing uneasily down at her.
He gestured at the chair opposite hers. âMay I?â
âOf course.â
He sat down and crossed one long leg over the other. The fire snapped and crackled, and the children burst into laughter about something.
âI must apologize again,â he said quietly, âfor the way I treated you yesterday at the fort, and for the way things have turned