take checks. She could use some cash. âI might get another order for a portrait.â
Matthew swallowed. Heâd prefer to rearrange these receipts and dust the merchandise all morning. Anything to put off looking at the picture of Susie.
âIâve got the sketch ready,â Glory said. Sheâd placed the drawing of Susie on her easel. Sheâd drawn Susie smiling and holding a plate of oatmeal cookies almost level with her chin.
âI see that,â Matthew said as he stood and hobbled over to the sketch. He took a deep breath. He felt the rubber band squeeze his heart. Heâd been unable to cry at Susieâs funeral. Heâd just sat there with that rubber band squeezing the life out of him. This time heâd take a quick look and be done with it. He felt as if heâd been called upon to identify someone in the morgue. It wasnât a duty he wanted to prolong.
âThatâs her,â Matthew said in surprise. Heâd expected an identification picture of Susie, something that looked like a passport photo where you see the resemblance but not the person. But Glory was good. It was Susieâs eyes that smiled at him from the paper.
âI wasnât sure about the cheekbones,â Glory fretted.She didnât like the stillness that surrounded Matthew. âI think they might be a little too high.â
âNo, itâs perfect. Thatâs Susie.â
Matthew braced himself for the inevitable second wave of pain. Susie had trusted him to save her life, trusted his faith to make her well. Heâd never forgiven himself for letting her down. Somehow he hadnât prayed hard enough or loud enough to make any difference.
âDid she have a pink dress?â Glory interrupted his thoughts. Matthewâs face had gone white and she didnât know what else to offer but chatter. âI thought Iâd paint her in a pink dress with a little lace collar of white.â
âPink is good,â Matthew said as he turned to walk away on his crutches. The sweat cooled on his brow. Heâd made it past the hard part. Heâd seen Susie again. Seen the look of trust on her face. Heâd promised heâd take care of her and he had failed. He had told her God would come through for them. But heâd been wrong. In the end, Matthew had bargained bitterly with God to let him die. But God had not granted him even that small mercy. Matthew kept his face turned away from everyone. Heâd fight his own demons alone.
âYou like pink, do you?â Elmer said as he walked over to Glory.
âWho, me? No, Iâm more of a beige-and-gray type of person,â Glory said. She didnât like the closed look on Matthewâs face or the ramrod straightness of his back when heâd turned around. But heâd made it clear he didnât want to talk.
âBeigeâgrayâthatâs good,â Elmer murmured as he leaned closer to Glory.
Matthew hobbled stiffly back to the counter and sat back down on his chair. The air cooled the remainingsweat off his face as he watched Elmer make his moves. The old fox. Matthew took a deep breath. Today heâd rather watch the nonsense with Elmer than hold on to his own pain. He wanted to live in today and not yesterday. It made him feel better to know he wasnât the only one being charmed by Glory. No wonder the old man drank his orange coffee as if he enjoyed it. âNo checker game this morning, Elmer?â
âCheckersâah, n-no.â Elmer stammered a little. âI thought Iâd sit and talk a bit with the angâwith Miss Glory.â Elmer gave a curt nod in Gloryâs direction. âGet acquainted, so to speak.â
âThatâs very friendly of you,â Glory said. Sheâd watched Matthew make his way to the counter and had relaxed when he turned to face them. When he started watching them, she turned her attention to Elmer. The old man was safer. She