to just sit and watch. I should have practiced privately with Jake and the coach before skating with the whole team.
Lori tosses me the helmet and looks down at my stocking feet. âArenât you forgetting something?â
âShoot.â The bag with my skates is on the bleachers.
âYouâd be lost without me,â she says, and jogs down the hallway. I do the equivalent of the bathroom shuffle out the door and follow Jake toward what feels like the electric chair. My heart is pounding, and Iâm not sure if itâs because of excitement or terror.
âAre you ready?â Jakeâs balancing on his blades, looking as comfortable as he would in sneakers. Iâve never figured out how to walk in skates off the ice.
At the end of the hall, I slide onto the nearest bench. Thereâs a small crowd watching the guys practice. Lori already has the skates out of my bag. Dadâs old hockey skates look beat, but Iâm grateful I never liked the figure skates Momâs always wanted me to wear. I canât reach my feet with the bulky gear on, so Lori laces me up.
âWhat are you going to do if Iâm not here? I may not always be able to be your personal assistant.â She ties a bow with a flourish.
âBite your tongue.â I canât think about doing this without her.
âI could always help,â Jake says with a raised eyebrow and a grin.
Lori smacks his arm as she stands up, but she looks at me with a serious expression. âDonât tell me I didnât warn you about this dude.â
She pulls me to my feet and sort of pushes me to the opening onto the ice. I wobble as I step out and cringe. I can skate circles around these guys. But the equipment feels like it weighs at least twenty-five pounds. I think of the times I saw Disney on Ice as a Girl Scout, and suddenly I can feel what itâs like to skate around the ice in a Mickey Mouse suit. It certainly canât be more awkward than this.
Six of the guys are on the ice and five more are on a bench against the far wall. They all gawk like Iâm an alien from planet Venus. Or maybe itâs my imagination, because the next second they are all very busy looking anywhere but in my direction.
Jake points to the goalie. âYouâve got Carter in net. Johnson and Temple on defense, and Jimmy Flores on right wing. Iâll take left wing, and Coach wants you to start at center.â
I stare at Jake. I must have heard him wrong. Thereâs no way I can play center; itâs like the quarterback of hockey. I watch hockey, but that doesnât make me qualified to play center.
So of course I say, âSure, no problem.â
âFake it till you make it,â my new motto.
I look around and I wonder what Jake and the coach told the team, because itâs almost too obvious they are ignoring me. Coach gives the high sign, and all the guys get out on the ice. Theyâve clearly done this drill beforeâthey practically fall over each other to race up and down the ice like theyâre being chased by the zombie apocalypse.
Jake thrusts the stick back in my hand before skating away. Iâm left standing alone, not really sure what to do when Coach skates over. âGlad youâre here, Spaulding. I wasnât sure we were going to see you today.â
âBelieve me. I wasnât sure you were going to see me today.â I glance at Jake skating toward the net. âBut Iâm glad Iâm here, too.â
Coach looks me up and down. âMy son wore that gear when he was ten,â he says, then nods in approval. âItâs a perfect fit for you.â
Great. Iâm the size of a ten-year-old boy. I look at the other kids skating around the rink. Some of them looked scrawny the other night, like maybe theyâre freshmen, but they all look huge in full gear. âUm. Is that going to be a problem? I mean Iâve seen some pretty nasty stuff in the videos