a coma? I asked. My voice sounded scratchy and harsh.
The pain was starting to come back now, a little more with each breath.
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machines and making little notes on her clipboard. You were unconscious when they found you, and then they doped you up for the surgery. Youre just now coming around. Starting to feel some pain?
I nodded. I liked her. She was very straightforward.
Alrighty then, well take care of that, she made some adjustments to the keypad on the IV stand and changed the bag at the top. There, that should help soon.
What happened? I asked her. Am I OKAY?
Youre going to be fine, but the doctor will be in shortly to tell you more. If you need anything from me, like more of the good stuff to knock you out or something to drink, whatever, just push this little red button here. She showed me a small tube-shaped thingy with a wire that ran out of the bottom of it to the wall behind me. A red button was on one end of it. This will page us at the nurses station. Someone will come and check on you, although it might not always be me. Okay? I nodded again.
She bustled about busily for a few more minutes, then breezed out, waggling her fingers at me as she went.
The medicine started kicking in soon after, and I was about to go back to sleep when a tall black man with a thin mustache, wearing a white doctors coat and a stethoscope around his neck, walked into the room. I assumed he was the doctor.
Hello there, Killian, he said. He pulled up one of the chairs in the room (they were a lovely shade of orange, to go with the puke green walls, I can only assume) and sat down so he was more or less on an eye level with me. My name is Dr. Murray. Im your doctor. Its good to see you awake. Youre looking a lot better than the first time I saw you. Youve been through a lot in the last 24 hours.
Like what? I asked.
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Well, do you remember what happened? he asked.
I nodded, Arent the police going to ask me questions now that Im awake?
The doctor laughed, Youve watched too many cops shows on TV. No, they arent going to need to ask you any questions. Theyre saying you interrupted a mugging, classic case of wrong place at the wrong time. They havent caught the guy yet, but they are looking. Now, as for you, this guy did a number on you. Youre going to be just fine, but its going to take a while, several weeks at least. The knife entered at a perfect angle considering he missed all the important stuff, but he did puncture your lung. Weve stitched up what needed stitching. Now you just need rest to finish up the job.
Its not going to be real fast, and its going to hurt like hell, but thats why God invented drugs. Ill be keeping an eye on you, and Im sure someone showed you how to contact the nurses if you need anything.
He stood up as if to leave, but I noticed hed left out some important information. I struggled to stay awake as the medicine was really kicking in about now. Wait, what about Seth? I said. Maybe I had been wrong.
Maybe it wasnt really Seth, or maybe they had been able to save him too.
That was the other young man? Dr. Murray asked me. His slightly joking manner was gone now, and I knew the news wasnt good.
I nodded.
Did you know him? he asked.
Past tense. Definitely not good. I nodded again.
Im sorry, he said simply, He was dead when the police got there.
I felt a tear roll down my cheek. The doctor looked at me sympathetically and patted me awkwardly on the hand. Try to get some rest, he said, Thats whats going to help you heal.
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I wondered if he meant physically or emotionally. I suspected I would heal much faster from my stab wound.
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The next time I awoke, my parents were in the room with me. As soon as my eyes were open, Mom was at the side of the