issues, too, so I can relate. It took me a whole year to break it off with him. And it is one thing I hope I never have to go through again.â
âI feel you. My lady friend is so fragile, Iâm afraid she might try something desperate if I donât handle things right. But life goes on.â
Life did go on for me. And in a way that I had never expected.
Within a month, I was madly in love with Darla. Unfortunately, the first time we made love it was a letdown, because I couldnât remain erect long enough to please her, or myself. I knew it was the guilt I was feeling. Each time Rachel said or did something I didnât like, I didnât feel as guilty. By the end of the third month, I was so into Darla, I knew that she was the woman I wanted to spend the rest of my life with. I had told her about Rachelâs nutty family and about how Rachel had kept that information from me for so long. Darla understood my concerns completely. Was it possible that she was just as docile and as willing to please me as Rachel? I wondered. If so, I had hit the jackpot twice.
It had been four months since the trip to Alabama, and not once had Rachel or I brought up the subject of her familyâs problems. She was so busy planning our future that she hadnât noticed how my demeanor had changed.
Other people had noticed that I had begun to act differently. Last night, when Rachelâs uncle Albert came to the apartment, heâd made some disturbing comments.
âSeth, whatâs up, dude? You havenât cracked a smile since I came in that door two hours ago. With that long face and those bags under your eyes, you look like dog shit! Running a business must really be hard on you.â
âYeah, running a business is not easy,â Iâd replied, wishing heâd leave or mind his own business. âWeâre still smoothing out some rough edges.â
âHeâs just working too hard,â Rachel had said, caressing my neck. Albert was so brazen, he always made himself at home when he made one of his unexpected visits, which were too frequent and too long for me. He had just poured himself his third double shot of vodka and had flopped down on the love seat, facing Rachel and me on the couch. Sheâd refilled my wineglass. âBut donât worry about my boo, Uncle Albert. Iâm taking real good care of him.â
âWell, excuse me,â Albert said with a neck roll. This man went out of his way to let the world know he was gay. On this particular night he wore a black cape over a skintight red jumpsuit. With his big brown eyes, high cheekbones, and bow-shaped lips, he was just as âprettyâ as Rachel. He smoothed back his wavy brown hair and took a long drink. After he let out a mild belch, he continued. âDude, I have a friend who works for a real estate company on Shattuck. They have been listing some fantastic properties lately. One in particular has a two-car garage and a huge backyard for the future kiddies to roam around in!â
âWe can wait,â Rachel said. âThings are really heating up at my job, so Iâm not sure I want to start a family too soon. I just got a promotion, and it wouldnât do me much good if I had to take off on maternity leave too soon.â Rachel turned to me when she heard me gasp. âWhatâs wrong, baby? You look like you just saw a ghost.â
âIâm fine. Just a little heartburn,â I lied, rubbing my chest for emphasis. I coughed to clear my throat, which was so dry and inflamed, it felt like I had just swallowed a ball of fire. âThanks for the information, Albert. Rachelâs right. There is no need for us to start our family too soon.â
âWell, yâall know whatâs best, but when you do get ready to look for a big enough place, just let me know,â Albert said. He stood up and let out another belch and glanced at his watch. âI hate to run, but I have