elseâsâand a bad end was what she did ought to have come to, instead of marrying the greengrocer and riding in her Morris car like a lady. Some folks have all the luck. And donât you never trust a red-haired girl, Mr. Fairfax. Sandy eyelashes too, she had.â
Sheâs not a bad old thing. Just as I was going out, she called me back.
âWhat about that rent, Mr. Fairfax?â she said in a hesitating sort of voice.
I felt an awful brute.
âI havenât got it, Mrs. Bell.â
âWell, youâd give it me if you hadâI know that.â
I thought I had better know the worst, so I asked her if she wanted me to go, but she flared up all over again, and said she wasnât a bloodsucker nor a thief, and folks that misjudged other folks would live to be sorry for it. And then she began to cry and talk about her son that was killed at Mons, and I patted her on the shoulder, and she said I was his living imageâwhich I hope to goodness Iâm not, because the photograph sheâs so proud of is pretty awful. And then she got to calling me âmy dear,â and I escaped. Sheâs an awfully good old soul.
On the way upstairs I met Fay. Her door opened just as I passed. She had on the green lace frock she was making yesterday, and I should think sheâd used the best part of a box of make-up on her face. I canât think why. Her skinâs good enough when she leaves it alone. She came out looking at me as if she wanted me to flirt with her. It didnât improve my temper. Women always seem to think theyâve only to look at you through their eyelashes, to get anything out of you that they want. It makes me wild. So I was going on; but then I thought of something, so I turned back.
âDid you come up to my room for anything whilst I was out?â
She began to put a sort of scarf thing over her head.
âWhy should I?â
âI donât know. Did you?â
She looked over her shoulder.
âWould you have been sorry if youâd missed me?â
I suppose it was rude of me, but I said âNo.â Fay wants whipping.
She whirled round in a rage.
âThank you! How polite you are! Do you really flatter yourself that I should come running after you into your beastly attic?â
I said, âI wish you wouldnât talk nonsense. I canât think why you canât answer a plain question. Iâve lost an important letter, and if youâd been up to my roomââ
She stamped her foot.
âWhy should I come up to your room?â
âYou might have wanted meâand you might have noticed the letter if Iâd left it on the table.â Of course I knew I hadnât left Isobelâs letter on the table. I knew I had put it in the right-hand top drawer of the chest of drawers.
Fay dropped being angry.
âWould you like me to come and pay you a visit?â
âNo, I shouldnât.â
âPerhaps I will some day.â
Itâs no good talking to her when sheâs in that mood. I turned my back and went upstairs, and when I was about half way up I heard her run down into the hall so fast that I was afraid sheâd break her neck. She didnât. She went out and banged the door as hard as she could.
I went back to my room, and when I opened the door something rustled. I bent down to look. There was a scrap of paper dragging along with the doorâI could just see the edge of it. I got it out with a match and looked at it under the gas. It was a scrap of writing-paper with one word on it. The word was, âhide.â Isobel had written it. The piece of paper had been torn from her letter. I looked everywhere, but there were no more pieces. Some one had come into my room whilst I was out and torn up Isobelâs letter. I didnât believe it was Mrs. Bell.
VII
September 17 th; morning âIâve got a lot to write, but Iâll begin at the beginning.
I got an answer from Box
Dorothy Calimeris, Sondi Bruner