Behind Closed Doors by Ashelyn Drake Read Free Book Online

cancelling on me, but he doesn’t. I’m tempted to ask Andy for his car and just show up at McEntire’s Pub, but I don’t want to seem desperate. I know the effect I have on Darren. He wants me just as much as I want him—only he’s exercising restraint. If I can’t get close to him, I can’t make him see that he wants to be with me.
     
    I’m just about to get up and search for Andy’s car keys when there’s a knock on my door. I’m not expecting anyone, so I look out the peephole. Darren? I yank the door open, and he hurries inside, shutting the door behind him as quickly as possible.
     
    “What are you doing here?” I ask. Sex in the men’s room was risky, but coming to my dorm is downright insane.
     
    “This.” He moves toward me, gripping the back of my head in his hand and crushing his lips to mine.

Chapter Six
     
    At first I’m too stunned to move, but then Darren’s tongue snakes its way into my mouth and I’m moaning. If kissing were an Olympic sport, Darren would easily win the gold.
     
    He pulls away too soon and leans his forehead against mine. “I looked into your records to find out where you lived. This is by far the stupidest thing I’ve ever done.”
     
    “There’s a lot of that going around lately.” I smile up at him.
     
    “I’m not usually this reckless, but you’re under my skin.”
     
    “You make that sound like a bad thing.”
     
    “Not at all.” His hands lower to my waist and tug my hips to his.
     
    “This isn’t a booty call, is it?” Darren is undeniably sexy and being with him is intense, but I don’t want that to be all there is between us.
     
    “No. I just wanted to see you. I felt like such a dick for bagging out on dinner. I wasn’t even sure you’d be here.”
     
    “You could’ve called or texted me.”
     
    “I wasn’t thinking.” He kisses me, letting his lips linger on mine. “You cloud my judgment in the worst and best way possible at the same time.”
     
    “I know the feeling.”
     
    “So, what are we going to do about this?”
     
    “Good question.” I take his hand and bring him to my bed. He sits down, but looks uncomfortable. “What’s wrong?”
     
    “We’re alone. There’s a bed. I just told you I didn’t come here for sex, yet it’s all I can think about.”
     
    I sit down on his lap, straddling him, and rest my arms over his shoulders. “What if I said I don’t want to have sex again until we figure this out?”
     
    “Then I won’t touch you.” His hands remain at his sides.
     
    “I didn’t say you couldn’t touch me. I said I don’t want to have sex.”
     
    “Don’t want to or don’t think we should?” he asks.
     
    “Are you trying to call me out on a technicality now?” I smile and kiss his jaw.
     
    “What can I say? You’ve gotten to me. I’m even thinking like you now.”
     
    I think he and I are a lot alike and have been thinking the same things since we met. It’s why we clicked from the start.
     
    “Honestly, I do want to, but I think we need to decide what we’re going to do. I don’t want to be the girl you hook up with whenever you’re horny.”
     
    He picks me up and places me on the bed next to him. “Sorry, but having this conversation with you on my lap is working against you.”
     
    I was testing him, seeing how much he’d let me tease him without actually acting on it. It was stupid, but I couldn’t help myself. “Look, when I came here for orientation, I thought I wanted to hook up and not have any real attachments. Then Noelle met Andy, and seeing how sickeningly cute they are together…” I can’t bring myself to say the rest.
     
    “You want that for yourself.”
     
    I force myself to meet his eyes. “I’ve never had it before. I’ve had boyfriends, but it wasn’t—”
     
    “You’ve never been in love.”
     
    Oh God, I hope he doesn’t think I’m trying to say I love him. I’m definitely not there yet. “No, never. Not then and