Betrayed by Jordan Silver Read Free Book Online

no longer in danger but in that moment I needed to see
her, to touch her and reassure myself that she was safe and
whole.
    She was understandably surprised
when I grabbed her up from the desk where she'd been sitting
writing away at her computer.
    "Dominic what?"
    "Don't talk baby just let me hold
you; fuck baby."
    Knowing that I held my whole world
in my arms, that they were both fine, is the only thing that helped
me hold onto my sanity then. I beat back the rage that was trying
to climb up from my gut. I knew when it was unleashed it would
destroy everything in its path but not yet. First I had to right a
wrong, no matter what they had done I'd done worse. I'd doubted
her, scorned her, put her away. Fuck fuck fuck. It was my most
humbling experience to date.
    "Please forgive me Maddy, I'm so
fucking sorry I didn't know." She was now the one comforting me as
she tried to make sense of my words, her little hands running up
and down my back soothingly.
    "It's okay Dominic whatever it is
it's okay I love you." And that just made me feel ten times worse.
How could I have had so little faith in her when she has so much in
me? She had no way of knowing it but with every stroke of her hand
she was driving the nail deeper into her friends' coffins. They are
so fucked, right after I stop kicking my own ass for being a piss
poor husband. Her dad has every right to come after me with his
gun. I had sworn to protect her and in the end I had been her worst
nightmare. Way to go Hearst you fuck.
    I sat her in the chair as I tried to
get my thoughts together. Pacing back and forth in front of her my
mind went in a thousand directions at once. I needed to piece the
shit together somehow because someone was going to pay for this
shit but it was more important to me to get the guilty party than
to just go off half cocked like I'd done before and fuck with the
wrong person.
    "I need you to tell me everything
you remember about that night baby."
I saw her tense, she didn't even need to ask me what night I was
referring to, she already knew, and I could see it was the last
thing she wanted to talk about.
    "It's very important baby." She
turned fearful eyes up to me and I could see the tears already
gathering. Kneeling beside her I placed one hand over her stomach
and took one of hers with the other.
    "I promise you I'm not going to get
mad at you, look at me, I'm not mad at you okay just answer the
question for me." I kissed her forehead gently and felt her take a
reassuring breath, sort of like she was gathering her strength to
face a battle.
    "Um, I think Brenda called me
earlier in the day and asked me if I wanted to go into town for a
night out. I turned her down because I knew you wouldn't approve.
Then a little later Simon called and said Brenda was hounding him
to go hang out and that we should go to get her off our backs or
something like that. I hadn't seen Simon since before you left
and..." She paused to look at me because she knew what hearing that
name now did to me. I was silently gritting my teeth and trying not
to fold my fists so as not to give away my feelings.
    "Go on it's okay."
    "Well after Simon called I decided
it might not be so bad to go for a little while, I didn't plan to
be there for very long maybe an hour or two tops. Plus I was
working on something and I was getting a little stuck so I thought
a change of scenery might do me some good so I went." She fluttered
her free hand nervously from her throat or her chest and back and
looked everywhere but at me.
    "Then what happened?"
    "Um, I don't really remember all the
details, that's the truth Dominic I swear. I just remember Brenda
yelling whoo hoo or something like it when we got there and she
already had a beer waiting for me. I honestly don't remember much
after that first beer but I must've had more after that. Anyway,
you know the rest."
    "That's it, that's all you
remember?"
    "Um, sorta, I remember feeling hot
and a little disoriented so I had to sit in the