know. A weekâs payroll for Aztec.â
âCount it,â Ellen said. âI want to find out how much my childâs life is worth.â
âEllen.â
âItâs like an insurance policy, isnât it?â Ellen said. âAnd Iâve been after you for years to take one out for Bibby.â She laughed. âFor her college education.â
âEllen, for Godâs sake.â
âI know, we canât afford it. Can we afford it now? Oh, never mind. Go drink your coffee.â
âI only thoughtââ
âAll right . Iâll have some, too.â
He hurried into the kitchen and put the kettle on to boil. When he came back she was counting the money.
âOver twenty-four thousand dollars.â
âItâs a lot of money,â Malone said inanely.
Ellen grinned. âSheâs a lot of little girl.â
He crammed the money back into the bag with trembling hands.
Neither took more than a few sips.
She kept rocking.
At three A . M . she suddenly said, âIs this all youâre going to do, Loney? Sit here?â
âWhat else can I do? Thereâs nothing I can do tonight.â
âWhat kind of a man are you? I thought I knew you.â Her eyes summed him up like an obituary.
âThat little one, Furia,â Malone explained to the floor. âHeâs gun-happy. I want them to get to wherever theyâre holing up without any trouble. Itâs the best protection Bibby can have. Theyâll have no excuse ⦠Look, why donât we talk in the morning? Youâre dead for sleep.â
âLook whoâs talking.â
âIâll go to bed in a while. Let me give you a pill.â
âNo.â
âWhat good are you going to do Bibby sitting up all night? Youâll need your strength.â
âAnd you wonât?â
âIâll go, too, I tell you. Come on, how about it?â
At a quarter of four she allowed him to give her one of the sleeping pills left over from Dr. Levittâs prescription, when she had had the last miscarriage. She undressed stiffly. She moved like Barbaraâs walking doll. He tucked her into bed and stooped to kiss her.
She turned her face away.
He dragged back down to the parlor.
He carried the coffee things into the kitchen, washed and dried them, put them away.
Then he went back upstairs.
The robe and slippers were on the gilt chair. Little pajamas on the floor, the ones with the daisies she was ape over. He picked them up and folded them and hung them with care over the foot of her canopy bed. She loved her bed, with its lace-trimmed tester. It was a cheap one, everything they owned was cheap except a few of Ellenâs motherâs things, but Bibby was crazy about it. Her homework was on the worktable, in her hentrack handwriting. She always gets U-for-Unsatisfactory in Neatness. He picked up her plaid schoolbag and looked in. It was full of drawing papers, crayons of fun trees, happy cows, sunny houses, huge suns. E-for-Excellent in Art. Her drawings laughed, her teacher said.
Those killer skunks.
The sheet and blanket were flung back from when Ellen had awakened her. The pillow still showed the dent of her head.
He felt the bed, trying to feel his child.
But it was cold.
He eased the door to Barbaraâs room shut and looked in on his wife. Ellen was asleep. One arm was drawn across her face to shut the world out. She was making mewing sounds. Poor Ellen. Who else has she got to blame? Sheâs got to get back at somebody.
He went downstairs again. He opened the black bag and counted out the money on the coffee table. $24,358.25. It was like counting out Bibby. Is this all my kid is worth? Figure a life expectancy of seventy years. That makes her worth less than $350 a year.
Not enough. Iâll kill them.
He fell asleep on the sofa, the black bag hugged to his belly.
He was driving the Pontiac along the river road through pearly fog at a