now. I’m sure I need to tend to that, I’ve been awake since 10 a.m. most of that time spent hiding in the bathroom. “It’s all right Mia, I called a physician, I know him personally and he does house calls. You need to be examined by a professional.”
I shake my head no vigorously and make my way around to the opposite side of the bed, slide down onto my screaming feet and begin to hobble toward the bathroom again. “No you don’t Mia, get off of those feet, I’m not done yet!” she says sternly but never raising her voice. I stop and plead with my eyes, then I decide we need another way to communicate. I make an imaginary pen motion with one hand and lay my other out flat as if writing hoping she has pen and paper so we can “talk”. “You want to write something down?” she asks and I give her a quick nod yes. “Ok just a sec, I’ll get some paper and tell the doctor to wait in the living room is that ok?” Another quick nod yes and she’s gone.
I hear her letting someone in the front door, they speak a few words back and forth in fluent Italian before she’s clicking her heels back down the hall and into the bedroom. Handing me the pen and paper she tries to get me to move back to the bed but I’m not budging until I write what I have to say. Where is he? Did you say he’s at your parents’ house? I thought that place was sold a long time ago? I don’t want to see a strange doctor and I’m on my period I need to use the bathroom. I hand her the paper and she reads, frowning and then looking up at me she says “Let me sweep the glass up so you can go back in there, ok? I nod once again and she goes to work removing all of the glass from the floor dumping it into a waste paper basket and disappearing to who knows where in the house to dispose of the larger pieces.
When she’s finished she leads me back and rinses the tub, grabs a box of tampons and towels from under the sink and turns to me. “Can you take a bath alone or do you need some help?” I shake my head no, she looks at me hard for a few seconds, narrowing her eyes as if she’s sizing up the situation, weighing her options. She must have come to some conclusion because she finally left me alone.
No mirror to look into, I have no idea if my neck looks worse or not so I decide to run bath water and clean up. Quickly undressing and stepping back into the tub hissing and wincing when my feet hit the water. My throat feels thick and swollen, maybe I should let that doctor look at me. I’m having some serious trust issues right now and Gabriella didn’t answer any of the questions I wrote down. I’ll have to ask again.
I bathe, leaving my hair, its fine no need to wear myself out washing it, drain the tub, tip toe to the toilet seat and sit to dry myself off. Gabriella knocks on the door and without waiting opens it a crack. “You need some clean clothes?” I nod yes and she returns with the matching silk pajama set I’ve been wearing to bed here. I take them and change, she motions for me to stay seated and brings the first aid kit to finish wrapping up my feet. She’s pretty good at this, they feel better when they’re all covered, nothing too deep thankfully. “Will you see Dr. Amato now Mia? Please, I know you’re traumatized and you’ve been through enough but surly as a nurse you know it’s important to be checked out now to rule out any permanent damage?”
I close my eyes and sigh. When I open them I make my pen and paper gesture again, she scurries off and brings them back. I tap the pen on the page where I wrote questions earlier and she looks away so I tap harder, more insistent to have my questions answered. “I’ll tell you whatever you want to know if you will please let Dr. Amato look at your neck.” Oh man…seriously? Manipulation courses through the Lawson blood, amazing how similarly they make it sound like compromise. Ok, I write and she helps me into bed, time to meet Dr. Amato.
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