order, I have to follow it, baby. It isn’t about us being together and don’t you know I would wait for you until we could be a proper family? That’s never been the question…will you wait for me though? I probably will have to do some time and I gotta know you’ll be there when I get out. It’s the only thing that would get me through a stretch, and you know that.”
I held his face in my hands as I stared into his eyes with an intensity only he could bring out in me. “You’re not going to prison, not if I have anything to do with it.”
His crystal blue irises, brilliant in their intensity, bore down into me before he kissed me and I surrendered to it on demand as his tongue darted in my mouth and I opened up to receive him. I moaned into his mouth as he lifted his body up only to unbutton my pajama top like we had nothing but all the time in the world. He wrapped his arms around my waist, his hands grasping the globes of my ass as my breasts and his firm chest were pressed against one another.
My nipples were hyperaware of my breasts against his naked flesh and I felt every inch of his skin against mine. He was warm, the feeling was erotic and made me flood my thong with juices from my body as he grabbed a hold of the back of my head and brought me in closer to him.
Our tongues did an elicit dance, riding the waves between want and need, lust and love. I didn’t even care I was breaking my own rules because I’d vowed over thirteen years ago that Cillian would never ever be inside me ever again.
Several failed relationships and a bootie call situation with Leo had me second guessing every decision I’d ever made in my adult life. I needed to get off but it had to be with someone who I knew loved me to the very core of their being. I knew I wasn’t just a side bitch or a play thing with Cillian and that made all the difference.
“Are you sure you want to do this?” I gasped when his lips finally left my own and started devouring my neck, sending chills up and down my spine. “We’re playing with fire and either one of us could get burned badly.”
“I’ve never wanted something so much in my whole goddamn life and just so you know, I wear a condom with my wife and Chiara so I’m clean.”
I scoffed at this comment. “I’ve got an IUD and I still wear a condom with every man I’ve slept with…other than you of course. I trust you—goddamn it, I really want to trust you but maybe we should…just so we don’t…” I trailed off.
“Fuck no, Sela. I want every fuckin’ inch of youse bareback, mo aingeal álainn . I don’t want a barrier between us and I won’t have it.”
“Mmm, do you call every woman your ‘beautiful angel?’”
“No, I don’t. I’ve never said it to anyone other than you.”
My heart skipped a beat as Cillian’s head moved down my body and slipped one of my hard nipples into his mouth. His hands worked on taking off my pajama bottoms, panties included, before he tossed them over the side of the bed.
I gasped as his fingers speared inside of me and found the spongy tissue of my G-spot. “You’re ready for me already and we’re just gettin’ warmed up, babe. I haven’t even tasted your beautiful pussy and you’re drenchin’ my fingers like a fuckin’ fire hose.”
I laughed out loud if only to relieve the tension and my utter embarrassment. “Such sweet words you say to a woman.”
“Only you, my little angel.”
He kissed his way down my body, stopping at my stomach to trace a few faint stretch marks from a long-ago faded pregnancy. His tongue lingered erotically on my abdomen and inside my belly button. I wanted him to get to work faster, to move his head down to where it counted but he leisurely laid kisses on hips and between my thighs.
I was on fire by the time his tongue found the folds between my legs and slowly parted them with an intensity that only made me want him