green.â
âNo, Iâm fine,â Clare said. âIâm fine.â She was saying it to herself rather than to Josie Dillon who was busy opening up the second sandwich and looking into it with pleasure.
Miss OâHara came into the classroom and the noise receded. She gave a few orders: pick up those crusts at once, open the window to let in some fresh air, no it didnât matter how cold and wet it was, open it. How many times did she have to say put the books away before you start to eat? And suddenly, âClare, can you come out here to me a minute?â
Clare didnât want to go; she didnât want to talk to her ever again. She hated Miss OâHara for making such a fool of her, telling her that sheâd won the prize and building up her hopes. But Miss OâHara had said it again. âClare. Now, please.â
Unwillingly she went out into the corridor which was full of people going to and from the cloakrooms getting ready for afternoon classes. The bell would ring any moment now.
Miss OâHara put her books on a windowsill right on top of the Sacred Heart altar. There were altars on nearly every windowsill and each class was responsible for one of them.
âI got you another prize, because yours was so good. It was really good and if you had been competing with people nearer your own age youâd have won hands down. So anyway I got this for you.â Miss OâHara handed her a small parcel. She was smiling and eager for Clare to open it. But Clare would not be bought off with a secret prize.
âThank you very much, Miss OâHara,â she said and made no attempt to untie the string.
âWell, arenât you going to look at it?â
âIâll open it later,â she said. It was as near to being rude as she dared to go, and in case it had been just that bit too much she added, âThank you very much.â
âStop sulking, Clare, and open it.â Miss OâHaraâs voice was firm.
âIâm not sulking.â
âOf course, you are, and itâs a horrible habit. Stop it this minute and open up the present I bought you so generously out of my own money.â It was an order. It also made Clare feel mean. Whatever it was she would be very polite.
It was a book of poetry, a book with a soft leather cover that had fancy flowers painted on it with gold-leaf paint. It was called The Golden Treasury of Verse. It was beautiful.
Some of the sparkle had come back into the small face with the big eyes. âOpen the book now and see what I wrote.â Angela was still very teacherish.
Clare read the inscription aloud.
â âThatâs the first book for your library. One day when you have a big library of books youâll remember this one, and youâll take it out and show it to someone, and youâll say it was your first book, and you won it when you were ten.â â
âWill I have a library?â Clare asked excitedly.
âYou will if you want to. You can have anything if you want to.â
âIs that true?â Clare felt Miss OâHara was being a bit jokey, her voice had a tinny ring to it.
âNo, not really. I wanted to give you this in front of the whole school, I wanted Immaculata to give it to you, but she wouldnât. Make you too uppity or something. No, thereâs a lot of things I want and donât get, but thatâs not the point, the point is you must go out and try for it, if you donât try you canât get anything.â
âItâs beautiful.â Clare stroked the book.
âItâs a grand collection, much nicer than your poetry book in class.â
Clare felt very grown-up: Miss OâHara saying âImmaculataâ without âMotherâ before it. Miss OâHara saying their poetry textbook wasnât great! âIâd have bought a book anyway if Iâd won the guinea,â she said forgivingly.
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Jo Willow, Sharon Gurley-Headley