sitting with her hands folded in her lap. The book was not in evidence.
âYouâve come to talk about Madge, havenât you?â
âAnd about you and me, Aunt Agnes. Itâs sheer tragedy that you have to go and live somewhere else. We made a perfect little circle, the three of us. I can safely say that, these last two years, I have been as happy as any man can hope to be.â
âYes! ⦠Yes, Iâve noticed that you have.â
The remark seemed out of focus. Also, Aunt Agnes looked amused, instead of impressed. He reminded himself that he was to be firm as well as fair.
âI have to live near London, of course. That puts Madge in a terrible position. I would not for one moment dispute your claim to a sacrifice on her partââ
ââSacrificeâ!â Mrs. Blagrove laughed somewhat loudly. âLetâs see if Iâve got it the right way round. It would be a sacrifice on her part to leave you and resume her life with me ? Sacrifice of what, Arthur?â
While he was groping for a retort, she added:
âThere are some things that women cannot conceal from each other, however hard they try.â
âWhat has Madge to conceal from you?â he blustered. âDo I stint her allowance? Do I ask too much of her in return?â
âYou ask too little. So that the little you do ask becomes a soul-destroying chore!â
Within him was rising a strange kind of fear, which he did not know to be fear of himself.
âTo me, that doesnât make sense. But perhaps itâs my fault. Perhaps I have some blind spotâsomeâtaintâof which I am unaware.â
âItâs nothing so interesting as a taint, Arthur.â She was leaning forward on the settee. Her elbows were bent, quivering a little. She seemed to him like a spider about to pounce. âPoor boy!â She was smiling now. âYour egotism protects you from all unpleasant truthsâprotects you, even, from the hunger for companionship and shared emotion. Iâm afraid I must tell you something about yourselfâsomething thatâs not a bit mystical or dramatic.â
âDonât!â
There was an antecedent state of mind, unsuspected by the judge, which made Penfold see in her smile the sneer which he had dreaded to see on the face of his friends, the sneer at the man who cannot hold his woman.
âYour first marriageââ she was saying, though her words now were lost to him ââlike your second, failed because you donât want a wifeâyou want a puppet that can only say âyes.ââ
He had no purpose except that of compelling her to silence, lest she shatter that little world in which he lived so happily with a wife who mirrored his picture of himself. He seized her by the throatâhis grip grew in strength while his mindâs eye was re-reading Julieâs letter: âI am terribly sorry and utterly ashamed of myself, but I canât stick it any longer.â Madge would leave him, tooâand again he would be pitied as the man without a woman of his own. If he had been of a different social type, he might have described his ecstasy as âseeing red and then getting a blackout.â He certainly went through a process comparable with that of regaining consciousness, though he was unsurprised when he found that Mrs. Blagrove was dead.
He lurched into the chintz-covered armchair.
âLook what youâve done to us now , Aunt Agnes!â He whimpered like a child. He was too profoundly shocked to feel fear for himself. This would be the biggest scandal Crosswater had ever known. There was little he could do to avert it, but that little must be done.
With his handkerchief he wiped the chintz of the armchair. In the hall he wiped the hatstand and the peg on which he had hung his coat. He put on his coat and hatâand his glovesâunlatched the front door, stepped outside and shut it behind