all about the people.â
Fred and Leroy want to open peopleâs minds, is what Raheem always says. They donât want us to kill; they want us to be willing to die.
Weâre dying anyway, I canât help but think. Remembering about Steve, and others.
âHow we gonna live?â Leroy shouts.
âGonna live for the people.â
âHow we gonna die?â
âGonna die for the people.â
âPower to the people!â
âPower to the people!â
âPower to the people!â
Patrice slips up beside me, laces her fingers through the chain link, too. âHey, Maxie.â
To be honest, Iâm not that happy to see her. I donât want to do this now. Thereâs a part of me that wishes we were in an actual fight, so I could get away without speaking to her for a day or so.
âHey.â
âSo I guess everything went all right?â
Reluctantly I show her the roll of quarters, which I have in my pocket. In the daylight it looks all mangled and sweaty.
âOh, no. What happened?â
Not answering seems safest.
Patrice throws her arm around my shoulders. âItâs going to be fine,â she says. âIâm sure itâs not a big deal.â
Itâs a very big deal. To me. Iâve never worried before about not having what it takes to be a Panther. If I canât carry through even the smallest task, am I also going to crumble when something real falls to me?
CHAPTER 13
T HE BREAKFAST TABLES ARE ALL LINED UP in the schoolyard, as long as the weatherâs good. Samâs serving up sausage and gravy, so thereâs no avoiding him this morning.
âHey, Maxie,â he says.
âHey.â I stand there, holding the plate he handed me, until Emmalee nudges me to move along down the line. One of the mamas comes bustling over with a fresh pan of gravy from the kitchen. Piled atop it, a tray of hot biscuits steaming into the muggy August air.
She clucks her tongue at us. âDonât you get out of this line âfore you have some apple slices on those plates,â she says. âYou need fruit.â
We stand obediently until a second mama comes hurrying up to replenish the fruit bowl. She spoons apple slices onto our plates, while another woman comes up behind her with jugs of orange juice. I wonder exactly how manymamas are back there cooking. My stomach rumbles as I take the cup that she pours for me and follow Patrice toward one of the long tables to sit.
With the edge of her plate in my back, Emmalee steers me to the side of the table where Iâll be facing away from Mr. Sam Childs. Itâs been their mission all summer to get me to leave him alone. Ever since things went bad, which is basically since Steve died, Iâve been fighting it, but the girls say itâs time to give it up.
âYou better not get gravy on me,â I threaten.
âToo late,â she squeaks.
I convulse myself trying to look back there. Patrice busts out laughing. Emmalee too. âIâm just messing,â she admits.
We dig into the food. I canât help thinking how it always used to be Steve who served at The Breakfast, along with Raheem and some other guys, in shifts. I miss Steve. We all do. His big personality and his smile that could light up the room. The Breakfast was most fun on the days when he and Raheem would get up front together and crack jokes on each other till we were all about to choke for laughing. Steve was best friends with Raheem, so it was all in good fun. I knew him longer than Sam, really, because he was over sometimes. Even slept on our bedroom floor a few nights once, when things were rough for him at home.Thereâs a hole in things now. Sam is different. Raheem is different. Everythingâs changed.
I look over my shoulder. Some days I resist it, but today isnât one of them. I miss Steve, sure, and thatâs a forever thing. Not reversible. Nothing I can do. But I miss Sam,